Today was a good day.

Today was a good day.  Strangely enough, I don't feel so deprived today.  I did eat three large biscuits which I should not have done.  I prayed about what I needed to pray about.  I became frustrated at the plateau I was and still am in.  I lost more than 25 lbs yet I was not losing weight quickly enough.  I really need to lose weight, but I will lose the weight for myself and no one else.  Today I ate only 1459 calories which is a far cry from the thousands of calories I have eaten in the past three days.  I will definitely keep it up.  I have to live each day one at a time.

Gluttony

I have an issue with gluttony.  As a Christian, I should be taking better care of myself as my body is supposed to be a temple of the Lord.  I am to represent Jesus Christ in all areas of my life including my body.  I prayed about it and I believe that God has answered my prayers.  I ate so much between 12:30 and 1:00 I felt like giving up.  I couldn't eat anymore today because of it.  I don't know if it is because of more overeating fears or because my prayer has been answered.

July 8

I have eaten well, but some of my food intake will carry over to today.  I need to eat less than 200 calories per snack.  A 300 calorie snack unless it is a sandwich is way too much.  I have not eaten a lot yesterday but at least I lost some weight which is good.  I ate twice baked potatoes which is a lot of calories, but at least the potatoes were small enough.  What made them fattening was the fact that I added a lot of fattening ingredients like sour cream and ranch dressing.  I don't feel horrible about eating the potatoes but I should not have added those ingredients.  I am glad to have eaten some fruits and vegetables I think.  I need to eat more.  I realize that I don't eat healthy at times and that doesn't make me feel good.

July 7

Maybe I should have counted all of the food I ate to stabilize my blood sugar.  I feel ashamed of eating extra food.  Right now, I am consuming 1830 calories for now.  I might have to change the number of calories every once in a while.  How long do I have to change the amount of calories, I don't know.  All I know is that I am at a very frustrating point in my life and I am more than motivated enough to lose weight.  I more than likely at around 3000 calories today.  I ate a lot of food today, yet I realize that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  I had that verse in my head as motivation.  I truly feel good about how I ate today despite the fact that I went over the 1830 calorie limit.

July 6

I feel great about Saturday.  Yesterday was a pretty good day.  I realize that I need to eat smaller portions of food and to eat the right kinds of foods.  Is it about calories or about carbs?  What is it really all about?

July 5

I have eaten a lot of food and this time, I don't feel so good about it.  I would like to lose weight, but I know that I cannot eat the way that I have been and lose weight that way.  I ate more than 4000 calories; I need to lay off of the barbecue for a while.  I have so many healthy food.  It is time I eat more of that and less of the barbeque.

Happy Independence day

What is to be expected is that I will over the 1800 calorie goal limit.  I did just that.  I went over the limit...way over.  I ate more than 4100 calories worth of food today and I don't feel so bad about it.