Mindfulness

I need to be mindful of what I eat.  Today, I learned just that, to be mindful of what I eat.  I gained more than 8 pounds in the last few days, which I should have learned was detrimental to my health and my peace of mind.  I have been frustrated lately about my weight and my lack of weight loss.  I have been at a plateau for a while and yet I continue to lose and gain, lose and gain, lose and gain.  Now, I have been motivated to apply what I have learned to my life.  I need help in applying those weight loss and diet principles and those meal plans that I have to my daily life.  I hope to lose weight soon by eating a proper, healthy diet and exercise.

Another confession

I confess that I am a glutton in need of overcoming this issue.  I do wonder if it is a form of idolatry.  I know gluttony is a sin, so I need help.  I ate a lot of food today.  I have done a lot wrong and I hope to follow my new contract.  I hope to eat less than 2000 calories per day starting tomorrow.  Today I admit that I have eaten a lot and that I can get the help that I need.  I have been binging these past few days.  I will do better and I hope to continue to do so.

Confession time

I ate a lot of peanut butter crackers.  I don't like to eat much because I get sick when I do.  I am doing better than I did yesterday, but binge eating is a hard thing to overcome.

Help

I know I need help.  I know I cannot really stop this on my own.  I need help.

I give up

Let me see.  There really isn't much I am going to say.  I am going to eat a lot today.  So far, I had fried chicken, fries, bananas, cereal, and that is for breakfast.  I better not leave out the juice mix and the coffee.  I need to drink more water.  I can't take it anymore. But let me not forget the chocolate chip cookies and the four hot dogs I ate just now.  I did have craisins however.  I am stopping.  I stopped caring days ago.  I give up.  I realize I am hurting myself, but isn't it what I have been doing all along?

Danger

Maybe I am doing something dangerous.  I ended up with a headache yesterday because I was binging.  I am glad that I am okay today.  Myfitnesspal was putting too much pressure on me.  I tried to hard to overcome and not to struggle.  I would like to know what it will be like to not struggle and to take some time off of myfitnesspal.  I admit that I have binged and I am not proud of it.  I wish that planning my meals in advance would stave off the cravings, but it has not.  I need help in exhibiting self-control, and that is my real problem.

Binge

I binged today...again.  I know I need help but I cannot just stop.  I ate hot dogs with chili, fried potato wedges, cheese crackers, granola bar, cereal, and whatever I can get my hands on.  I even thought about eating cookies but I didn't.  I lack self-control and I know that help should be on the way, but I am scared, how how much really?  I feel guilty about eating so much.  I have a lot on my plate and I feel so alone in all of this.  I get my advice from the internet but I realize that I need to get advice face to face.  Not to mention I ate some ice cream with hazelnut spread and almond butter, which is delicious by the way.  I tried everything I know to do when it comes to binging, but to no avail.  I just feel so bad but it is too late now.  I can do better next time, but when should I begin?  Should I begin now?  Should I begin tomorrow?