Present entry

The past entry was actually from yesterday.  I feel like I should have known better. 

Anyways, I weighed myself this morning.  I am so glad that I lost weight.  After all of the weight I gained, I cannot believe how fast this weight loss has been.  I feel so much better already.

Today I ate whole grain spaghetti with spiced-up turkey meatballs and marinara sauce.  I tried to thicken it up but it was okay the way it was.  I am just so happy that I lost weight.  I lowered my calorie intake from 2390 to 2210.  I hope to lower the calorie intake even further.

Following a diet can be hard especially when one tries to lower the calorie intake.  It isn't so easy, but maybe I haven't tried it on a consistent basis.

How I am feeling today

I feel good about what I ate today.  I had at least four servings of fruits, yet I didn't eat any vegetables.  I realize that I need to be mindful of not only what I eat but of everything. 

Overcoming

I have eaten larger portions of food but I at least I am not over the calorie limit.  I plan to change or rather decrease my calorie intake to about 2150 calories.  It means that I have to eat extra fruits and vegetables and work extra hard to make sure that I don't go over the limit.  Therefore, I have to eat more low calorie foods such as fruits and vegetables and less of other foods.  It would be difficult for me but it will be worth it considering how much I ate last week.

Friday I did well

I have taken full advantage of my calorie intake.  Unfortunately, I tend to go over the 2200 calorie limit.  I should think of the calorie limit as a budget.  However, I did well today.

Change in my diet

I have eaten a large breakfast but I mixed my snacks together.  The food was good which was a trap for me.  I made barbecued chicken, hot dogs, and mashed potatoes.  I was lucky not to have eaten more than I had.  But what messed me up was not eating healthy enough.  I ate a lot of protein when I should have eaten fruits and vegetables.  I need to eat more fruits and vegetables and more fiber.  My diet is not great so how do I go about changing it?

Learning

I haven't eaten breakfast like a queen but like a pauper.  However, that should, and will change.  Lunch for me is the biggest meal of the day instead of breakfast.  Maybe, just maybe, that is a problem that I am having when it comes to losing weight.  I have issues with self-control and gluttony.  I also have an issue with hunger.  I tend to confuse some forms of hunger with true hunger.  Every time it seems, I am thinking about food I want to eat.  That too has got to stop because it happened to me today.  That is why my snack today is a large number of calories.  I don't wish to eat so many calories in snacks.  It seems too backwards to eat large snacks and small meals instead of the other way around.

Total control

I had to give up control of my eating and dieting habits to God.  It is frustrating not being able to follow dietary rules and also to go ahead and just eat healthy.  I have learned that worry and frustration need not to be the major issues that I face or otherwise I will binge eat.  I was left depressed or at least down in the dumps about my life.  It was time that I faced the truth.  My emotions and my frustration are two things I allow to get the best of me.  I am concerned at times whether I should eat anything at all.  Then I go eating too much.  I have heard that a woman should eat breakfast "like a queen", lunch "like a princess", and dinner "like a pauper".  This is one of many rules that maybe I should follow.  I don't feel guilty about eating any food today.  But I have to be mindful.