Compulsive eating

I have a compulsive eating disorder, or so it seems.  I need to identify why.  Is it medical?  Do I take medication?  What do I do with my compulsive "nature"?  It seems impossible, but I find out today that it will take a lot of time and a lot of patience.  I eat all hours of the day and I feel guilty and I want to lose weight.  The first thing will be hard and that is to get rid of the trigger foods even though my mother has a hand in dealing with my own compulsions.  Maybe I should talk to her about them.

Taking it slow

So I tried my best to eat well.  At least not eat too much over the limit.  I still have a lot of work to do.  I have to take it one day at a a time.  I will still seek help with the issue that I have.  I won't make any excuses. All I know is that I need help.  I believe that I will finally get the help I need.

My awareness of my problem

I have an issue and it hasn't just been on my mind.  It is an issue that I struggle with daily.  It isn't really about my weight as much as it is about my overall health and well-being.  Yes, I am overweight, but I am also an over eater.  I have my trigger foods that I have no business buying from the store.  It is hard to control myself whenever I eat.  I feel guilty about it and maybe writing it in this blog today can be of great help to me.  Hopefully I can come to terms as to why I have the issues that I do.  I keep believing that God is greater than my problems.  I still do, but it hasn't been easy believing so.  Maybe I should make the first move or say the right things.  I am not sure what I need to do now, but I wonder how to be an over comer in this particular situation.

Awareness of my issue

I have spent less time binge and have become more aware of what I overeat.  That is a good thing.  The downside is, is that I am still overeating.  I need help and I will not postpone this any longer.  I have even fewer points today than I have yesterday.  However, I realize that I have a long way to go.

Struggling once again

I am trying to not overeat, which I did today.  I did not know what to do. I realize that my problem stemmed from anxiety, but also from other things, like a compulsive need to eat...almost.  I am not sure what my internal problems are.  I do eat too much.  I lack patience and self-control and that is a problem that I have.  Maybe my problem is a spiritual problem.  Who knows?  All I know is that I feel alone.

I wish

I wish I could just quit eating so much.  I believe that I have an addiction.  I need so much help, but I am frustrated and overwhelmed.  I don't know where to begin.  Today is one of my better days.  I seem to be hungry but not hungry.  I want, need, and desire to get myself together.  I ate mostly unhealthy foods in comparison to what I should be eating.  Maybe that is the problem.

Today's diet

I realize how much grocery shopping I do, I still have to learn to eat healthier.  I am in a way ashamed.  I have an overeating problem, especially when it seems I am "hungry".  I eat out of control and I feel like a glutton.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I need help.  I know I sound like a broken record, but when today's diet consist of fruits, no vegetables, 2 milks, and fried foods, something has got to change.