Right now, I am just too tired. The night is young. However, it seems to me that I am getting older than I should be. Anyways, I will be okay however. I have to not sweat the small stuff while seeing the bigger picture. That is what I should do, not must do, but should do. Like this reflection, this is a diary of what I can do. That is the beginning of a healthy lifestyle, I guess. If only I know what it is. I feel the need to diet, not just eat healthy. I feel the need to automatically avoid foods that are not good for me. How do I approach food that is either good for me or not good for me? In other words, how do I have a meaningful, if not any positive kind of relationship with food? Food doesn't love me back. I feel like an abused person in this situation. I have grown tired of the abuse. I don't wish to grow tired anymore. Doing something about it means to finally stand up, divorce, and thus take control. I know nothing about an abusive relationship, thankfully, but I know that no one deserves to be abused. I have finally opened my eyes and now I finally got to see the error of my ways and I finally got to see that I deserve better. I deserve more. I can do this, now that I see things clearly.