Sunday, January 31, 2016

Reflection for 1/31/16

There are days when I want to take a break from this blog.  Today is one of those days.  I am not feeling great about doing this.  Anyways, I spent a large part of the day eating myself a lot of food.  I have diabetes and it was not a good feeling.  Despite the fact that I no longer am exhausted, I do get tired.  I am a diabetic and I need to do a better job of controlling it and taking it more seriously. Sadly, my diet shows this.  I am in need of help but no one can choose what I can eat and control my diabetes but me.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Brief summary for what I consumed today, 1/30/16

Breakfast
Dried fruits, 8 points

Lunch
Macaroni salad, 16 points

Dinner
Macaroni salad, 16 points

Snacks
Pop tarts, 17 points
Raisins, 6 points
Total points, 23

Total points, 63

Weekly points left, 5

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Journal entry for 1/28/16

Breakfast  8:56 AM
Boost Glucose Control Creamy Strawberry Shake

Snack 1  10:30 AM
Boost Glucose Control Creamy Strawberry Shake

Snack 2  1:00 PM

Lunch 1:30 PM
Spaghetti with meat sauce, baked
Homemade bread

Dinner 6:30 PM
Macaroni Salad

Snack 3 9:30 PM
Canned pears

Feeling: I admit to eating way too much starch and not drinking enough water.  Other that that, I don't feel so bad about what I ate.

Right:
Consumed fruits
Consumed breakfast

Wrong:
Consumed too much starch.


Friday, January 22, 2016

Journal entry for 1/22/16

Journal entry for 1/22/16
Breakfast 6:00 AM-10:30 AM
Fasted 0
Total 0

Lunch 10:45 AM
Ham and Cheese Omelet 6
Turkey sausage Patties 3
French fries 17
Total 26

Dinner 4:40 PM
Ham and Cheese Omelet 5
Turkey and Chocolate Patty 2
French fries 13
Total 20

Snack 1:20 PM
Banana 0
Total 0

Snack 2 7:30 PM
Cooked peas and carrots 3
Total 3

Total points for 1/22/16
Weekly Smart Points +31 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 44
Extra points 5
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 49

Right: Cooked instead of eating processed foods.
           Consumed more than one serving of fruits and vegetables.
           Drank lots of water and green tea.
           Drank bittersweet hot cocoa instead of sweetened hot cocoa
Wrong: Consumed too many fries in one sitting
             However, need to consume more fruits, vegetables, fiber, and whole grains

Monday, January 18, 2016

Journal entry for 1/18/16

Breakfast 11:00 PM (1/17/16)
Nature Valley Granola Bar  7
Total 7

Lunch 12:30 PM
Orange chicken, homemade 15
Brown rice  6
Orange Juice 6
Total 27

Snack 1 2:50 PM
Honey Nut Cheerios  6
Chocolate Candy  3
Total 9

Dinner 4:40 PM
Orange chicken, homemade 11
Drink,  5:50  PM
Bittersweet Hot Cocoa 1
Total 12

Snack 2 6:40 PM
Orange 0
Total 0

Snack 3 8:24 PM
Corn kernels  2
Total 2

Total points for 1/18/16
Weekly Smart Points +8 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 44
Extra points 13
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 57

Right: Cooked instead of eating processed foods.
           Consumed more than one serving of fruits and vegetables.
           Drank Juice in moderation.
           Drank bittersweet hot cocoa instead of sweetened hot cocoa
Wrong: Consumed chocolate candy as a snack.
             Consumed too much cereal in one sitting

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Taking a break.

I am just too tired.  I am taking another break this month.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Journal entry for 1/16/16


Breakfast
Bread 5

Lunch

Nature Valley bar 6
Sweet potato pudding 5
Total 11

Dinner
Progresso light new england clam chowder 6
Total 6


Snack
Dried cherries   24
Total 24


Total 46

Weekly points left 33

Weekly points used 2


Friday, January 15, 2016

Journal entry for 1/15/16

Breakfast  9:45 AM
Lance Whole grain cheddar cheese filled crackers 8
Total 8
Mood: tired.  I sometimes eat to stay awake.

Lunch 4:00 PM
Apple 0
Bread 19
Total 19
No guilt here, though I could have eaten more fruit.

Dinner 6:35PM
Collard greens 0
Baked sweet potato 4
Bread 7
Total 11

Snack 1 12:30 PM
Nature Valley Sweet and Salty Pretzel Nut bar 6
Total 6

Total points for 1/15/16
Weekly Smart Points +35 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 44
Extra points 0
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 44

Right: Cooked instead of eating processed foods.
           Consumed more than one serving of fruits and vegetables.
           Drank lime water instead of sweetened or powdered drinks.
Wrong:  Consumed a large amount of bread in one sitiing.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Journal entry for 1/14/16

Breakfast  N/A
Total N/A
I didn't consume that much food today, so I guess I realize now that breakfast is the most important meal of the day.

Lunch 2:30 PM
Baked Spaghetti 10
Total 10

Dinner 7:00 PM
Baked spaghetti 17
Total 17

Snack 1 6:35 PM
Homemade Bread 12
Total 12

Total points for 1/14/16
Weekly Smart Points +35 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 44
Extra points -5
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 39

Right: Cooked instead of eating processed foods.
           Drank lime water instead of sweetened or powdered drinks.
Wrong:  Did not eat breakfast.
              Consumed large amount of carbohydrates.
              Did not consume enough fruits and vegetables.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Journal entry for 1/12/16

Breakfast  6 AM
1/2 cup mixed nuts 13
Popcorn poppers 5
Total 18
I didn't consume that much food today, so I guess I realize now that breakfast is the most important meal of the day.

Lunch
Homemade Bread 6  5 PM
Pineapple chunks 0 3:00 PM
Total 6
The pineapple chunks are in reality a snack.  I didn't eat the lunch proposed in my diet and exercise blog.

Snack 1 11:30 PM
Almonds 4
Peanuts 13
Total 17
I have yet to be mindful of how many calories I consume, even of the healthier or healthiest foods.

Dinner 5:10 PM
Cream cheese 5
Homemade bread  4
Sliced Cheese 8
Deli-Ham 4
Total 21


Total points for 1/12/16
Weekly Smart Points - 217 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 45
Extra points 12
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 57

Right: Eaten breakfast.
           Consumed more than one serving of fruit.
           Measured food.
           Identified trigger and processed foods.
           Drank lime water instead of sweetened or powdered drinks.
Wrong: Processed foods still eaten in large quantities.
             Struggled to engage in mindful eating
             Struggled to cutting out processed and trigger foods.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Journal entry for 1/11/16

Breakfast  10 AM
Raisin Bran Crunch 8
Reduced fat milk  5
Nature Valley Bar 7
Apple 0
Total 20
I feel that cereal is an example of a trigger food or rather, trigger foods.  I realize that as much as I love cereal, that was way too much.  The cereal was actually consumed at 8:30 PM tonight instead of in the morning.

Lunch 1:00 PM
Rice  3
Butter beans 5
Pineapple chunks 0
Total 8
I have actually measured.  It was a lot more food than I thought.

Snack 1 1:20 PM
Raisins 6
Total 6
I measured this as well.  Having 1/4 or 1/2 cup of any food is actually a substantial amount.

Dinner 3:35 PM
French fries 20
Total 20
No guilt whatsoever.

Snack 2 3:40 PM
Almonds 8
Peanuts 13
Walnuts 8
Popcorn Clusters 1
Total  30

Snack 3 8:30 PM
Honey nut cheerios with milk 15
Total 15

Total points for 1/11/16
Weekly Smart Points - 205 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 45
Extra points 54
Total points consumed = Daily Smart Points + Extra Points = 99

Right: Eaten breakfast and a light lunch.
           Measured food.
           Identified trigger and processed foods.
           Drank lime water instead of sweetened or powdered drinks.
Wrong: Processed foods still eaten in large quantities.
             Struggled to engage in mindful eating

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Journal entry 1/11/16

Snack 1
1/10/16
10:50 PM
Pretzel rods 3
Total 3
Should have logged in, but ate one serving of pretzel rods, so I am okay.

Snack 2
1/10/16
11:00 PM
Nature Valley Bar 7,
Black coffee  0
Total 7
Should have also logged in last night.  However, I realized that I engaged in mindless eating.  I was not watching television so that did nothing to affect my appetite.

Breakfast  11 AM
Cheerios Multi-grain cereal 9
Reduced fat milk  8
Raisin bran crunch 12
Black coffee  0
Total 29
I feel that cereal is an example of a trigger food or rather, trigger foods.  I realize that as much as I love cereal, that was way too much.  Cereal is something that I often don't measure hence a reason why I overeat.

Lunch 1:00 PM
Chicken Fingers 7
Salad dressing 5
Total 12
I should have eaten more vegetables.  However, I am glad that I have correctly logged in.  It was ranch dressing and not Italian dressing.

Snack 1 6:30 PM
Almonds 4
Peanuts 26
Total 30
Peanuts should also be measured.  While nuts are healthy, I doubt that they are good in small quantities,

Dinner 7:20 PM
Lime-water 0
Total 0
I should have eaten something, but I was not hungry.  It does not matter, however.  It is best to consume three square meals a day.  I guess.  If only I have the knowledge of being a nutritionist.

Total points for 1/10-1/11  
Weekly Smart Points - 151 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 45
Extra points 36

Right: Eaten breakfast and a light lunch.
           Identified trigger and processed foods.
           Drank lime water instead of sweetened or powdered drinks.
Wrong: Not measuring foods that are trigger foods, which have been eaten in large quantities.
             Consumed too many processed foods.
             Consumed too much fattening foods (sweet, processed, fried, etc)

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Journal entry for 1/9/16

Breakfast  8 AM
Nature Valley Bar 6,
Apple 0
Black coffee  0
Total 6

Lunch 1:00 PM
Cheerios Multi-grain cereal 9
Reduced fat milk  4
Toast Wheat Bread 2
Cream cheese 5
Apple 0
Total 20

Snack 1 6:20 PM
Peanuts 39
Apple 0
Orange 0
Total 39

Dinner 7:20 PM
Reduced-fat milk 10
Cheerios 19
Total 29

Total points for 1/9/16    94
Weekly Smart Points - 115 points left
Daily Smart Points Value 45
Extra points 49

I don't feel guilty or bad about the foods that I ate.
Right: Eat more fruits
           Eating better portions of cereal
Wrong: Not enough vegetables
             Consumed trigger foods
             Consumed too much dairy
             Not enough whole wheat or whole grains
             Consumed way too much in snacks, contributing to large amount of points

Friday, January 8, 2016

How I am feeling today

I woke up at 4:30 this morning.  After I woke up and got ready for the day, I realize that I consumed way too much cereal. It was Honey Nut Cheerios.  My intake of cereal has been too much.  As a matter of fact, I consumed even more cereal at noon today.  It was Raisin Bran Crunch.  As much as I love cereal, it is a processed food that has always been a trigger food.  I have polycystic ovarian syndrome.  Cutting back or eliminating processed foods from my diet would also do wonders for my health.  I consumed more than 70 weight watchers points and almost 60 weekly points over.  I don't recall eating fruits and vegetables.  I also don't recall drinking a lot of water.  I did drink some water today but I also drank and still drink a lot of coffee.

As a matter of fact, I miss drinking a lot of water, which would do well for me and for my health.  I also realize that I have consumed a lot of bread and dairy for the day and not enough real, natural foods as well.  My weight tends to go up and down because of my unhealthy eating habits.  I have a "budget" of 45 points.  I am disappointed in myself.  I wish that I can not worry about mindless eating.  I feel frustrated about this for a few reasons.  I feel like I have wasted much on the little things instead of what is most important.  I even feel some guilt about eating so much.  I was afraid that something would be said about my unhealthy eating habits.  I know that I am holding myself back from reaching my goals which is to lose fifty pounds and keep it off.  I don't care for how I look body wise, but that has to change.  I have got to change.  I have got to take action before it is too late.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

WW diet journal entry 1/7/16

Breakfast  10:45 AM
Ham and cheese sandwich  6
Hint of Lime chips  5
Green tea  0
Total 11

Lunch 1:00 PM
16 oz. Water  0
Ham sandwich on grain 9
Total 9

Dinner 4:50 PM
Cheerios 3 3/4 cups with milk 21
Total 21

Snacks 4:58 PM
Snack 1 Cream cheese sandwich  11
Hint of Lime Chips  13
Total 24

Snack 2  1:15 PM
Strawberries 0
Whipped Cream  2
Total points 2

Total points for 1/7/16    67
Weekly Smart Points -2

The truth is, I don't feel great about consuming a total of 67 points when the daily amount of point is only 45.  Weight Watchers I hope will help me with why I ate so much today.  They have experts and coaches so far who could help hold those who join the program accountable.  Also this journal entry entry and myself will, and are, holding me accountable.  Right now, my mind is calm.  I was frustrated because of all of the food I was eating.  I realize I have been on this program before.  I was left frustrated and somewhat unable to lose weight.  My weight has or had the tendency to go up and down.  How do I make sure my weight goes down?  My weight is never stable.  This time I want it to go down.  I believe that identifying and getting rid of trigger foods from my grocery list would help me greatly.  That would also help me become more mindful of the foods that I eat as well.  I have a mindfulness problem that needs to be overcome as well.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Journal entry for 1/6/16

Breakfast
9 AM
Toast with cream cheese
Strawberries

Snack
10:45 AM
Vanilla yogurt with chocolate syrup

Snack 2
11:50 AM
Pretzel sticks

Lunch
2:00 PM
Sloppy Joe with cheese
Tossed salad with bacon bits

Dinner
3:00 PM
Sloppy Joe with Cheese

Snack 3
3:10 PM
Chips
Pretzels
Vanilla Yogurt with strawberry syrup

I have only 20 weekly points left.  I realized that I have engaged in such mindless eating.  It has helped me to see what I need to leave out the next time I shop.  Losing weight is very important to me and I want to keep it off.

Monday, January 4, 2016

Need more help...

Breakfast
9-10 AM
Coffee
Brownie
Green Tea

Snack 1
11 AM
Coffee
Brownie

Lunch'
1-2PM
Coffee
Brownie

Dinner
5-6 PM
Candy
Crushed Pineapple
Green bean casserole
Coffee

Oh boy.  Where do I begin?  I really have little clue except for the fact that I don't have much of an idea how to eat healthy on a regular basis.  I meant to consume a duck but the smell made me nauseated.  However, I can still take the meat off of the bone.  I like the taste of duck anyway, but not necessarily the smell, especially leftover duck in that was left in the fridge.  Anyways, most of the day, I drank coffee and tea.  A healthy person or a fitness guru I suspect drinks a lot of water, which is what I should do.  I am or was a yo yo dieter and that has got to stop.  I know what to do but I don't know how to go about it.  If only I knew how to lower my chocolate intake.  I love chocolate, but it is a trigger food and so are ice cream, some cereals, hazelnut spread, and crackers..  I guess I won't buy those from the store.  Maybe I won't maybe I will.  

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Journal for 1/3/16

I recall that chocolate is one of my trigger foods.  Well, I have more of that trigger food at my disposal.  It is hard to say no to trigger foods.  My goal is to lose over 190 pounds and keep it off.  It is a rather lofty goals, but I know I will feel better.  Saying "no" to unhealthy or trigger foods would go a long way into keeping the weight off.  Ice cream is another of my trigger foods.  I might as well say that ice cream is my favorite dessert and one of my favorite foods.  I don't have any on hand by the way.  Anyways, I have broken a cardinal rule today: I did not eat breakfast.  I guess the reason why breakfast is important is that it is good for weight loss so that I won't overeat for the rest of the day.  All I had was a cup of coffee for breakfast.  For lunch, I actually ate an extra meal, and did not overeat.  However, the only healthy thing I ate were green beans.  The meatloaf was the second healthiest thing.  I guess the reason why is because of the lack of an egg as a binder.  But then again, eggs are healthy, though maybe not for a meatloaf.  The sad truth is I do not have any eggs anyway despite the fact that they are nutritious.  Anyways, I did not consume anything healthy since.  I ate a lot, and I mean a lot, of chocolate and other candy.  It is an irony since I am now sure if I am ready to lose weight despite the fact that I need to lose weight.  I want to lose weight, but now I wonder if I am ready.  That is the frustrating part, wanting and needing to lose weight but eating and tasting unhealthy foods continually.  Following recipes and exercise videos are incredibly frustrating as well especially when I am trying and wanting to lose weight.  Taking it as slow would help me greatly and so are focusing on what I need to lose weight.  All I know is that I cannot just go at it alone.  I have tried that and it only works temporarily.  I need a permanent solution so that I can lose weight and thus keep it off.  That isn't a resolution.  That is my goal.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Trigger foods and eating habits

My trigger foods are chocolate, chips, and even wheat crackers.  I admit that I don't eat healthy.  For much of the day, I realize that eating brownies with a load of icing and a big helping of brownie and nut is not healthy.  I love chocolate and cheesecake, don't get me wrong, but cream cheese isn't always healthy, no matter if it is eaten with bagel, or it is cooked with eggs, vanilla, and sugar to bake a cheesecake on a graham cracker crust.  Ever since this morning, I have eaten nothing but unhealthy food and drank kool-aid.  I drank little water, or have eaten healthy food.  I know that I needed to lose weight, and I really do want to lose weight.  The truth is sadly, some of my actions say otherwise.  I have got to change my way of thinking when it comes to eating.  I have also got to be honest when it comes to my eating habits as well.  I sometimes rather eat a huge brownie and an extra helping of macaroni and cheese, with extra cheese, which is what I ate today.  Eating fruit at times seems to be something that does not interest me.  I just don't have the taste for it at times.  As a matter of fact, I have made a list of foods to buy from the store, but I realize that some of them are not healthy.  I also have a love for processed foods despite the fact that because I have PCOS, they are either to be limited or cut out altogether.  I also need to measure foods and take the time to write everything in this very journal.  This is something I plan to do as well. 

Friday, January 1, 2016

First entry of 2016

I have yet to start losing weight.  However, I finally know how to create that traditional journal I have been writing about.  That is the hard work.  In fact, it is even harder than planning meals themselves. I have made many mistakes along the way in my weight loss journey.  My weight goes up and down for a number of reasons many of which have to do with just plain old struggle and a lack of accountability.  I need to be held accountable and not just be honest about it.  Simple as that.  Taking action is the hardest part but only because I feel like I didn't know what I was doing.  It is always this time things will get better.  Maybe just maybe that mindset needs to change.