Thursday, July 31, 2014

Short entry

I am okay yet I should not have eaten the white rice.  What I should have done was eaten the brown rice along with the chicken and the cornbread.  I need to stop wasting time on the computer.  That is for another day.  On the other hand, I had a good day.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Menu for 7/30/14

Breakfast
Scrambled Egg
white bread toast
Butterball Turkey Bacon

Lunch
Jiffy Cornbread (baked)
White Rice, long grain, cooked
cabbage cooked
Fat Back

Dinner
White Rice, long grain, cooked
Jiffy Cornbread (baked)
cabbage cooked

Snack
Nature's Blend Very Raisin Honey Oatmeal

I believe that I have consumed 3 servings of vegetables, which is good, yet minimal.  I tend to eat what is available.  It is why I need to eat better.  It seems strange but all of us tend to eat what is available.  I need to be a better shopper.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Today is the day...

I did not get to eat a whole lot today.  I ate less than 1200 calories even, which is too low.  I was tired of the whole diet and losing weight thing.  So what did I do?  I prayed for the strength, wisdom, and motivation to lose weight.  I wish I had prayed for patience as well.  I could use it.  I ate a peanut butter and preserve sandwich for dinner.  I eat what is available in the kitchen, which I need to stop doing.  I know that there is healthier fare in the house and I should consume that instead.  I hope that don't have an inversion to healthy foods.  I want to lose weight and keep it off.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Raisins and bread

Breakfast
Raisins
Orange

Lunch
Pasta salad

Dinner
Pasta Salad

Snack 1
Raisins

Snack 2
Toast and preserves


The pasta salad was not healthy to say the least.  As a matter of fact, I need to buy healthier foods and prepare them.  I have meal plans everywhere I turn yet I don't follow them.  I know that I need to eat healthier and lose weight, but I also know that exercise is just as important.  I just wish that I had the foresight then that I have now.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Musings for 7/27/14

Breakfast
Orange
Raisins

Lunch
Macaroni and Cheese
Chicken Stew 
White rice

Dinner
Chickpeas

Snack 1
Corn flakes
2% milk

Snack 2
Air popped microwave popcorn

I am doing okay and my menu today was the same.  I do not feel guilty by anything that I ate.  However, the white rice wasn't a healthy choice.  I wished I had consumed brown rice instead.  I consumed two cups of chickpeas which was maybe a bit too much, but as I mentioned earlier, I don't feel guilty by what I ate.  I consumed just over 1700 calories today.  Hopefully I will keep up the good work and improve on that good work.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Summary of today

Breakfast
Peanuts

Lunch
Honey Raisin Oatmeal

Dinner
Barbecued chicken
Mashed potatoes
Garden peas

Snack 1
Peanut butter and preserves sandwich

There are things that I should have done differently.  The sandwich was not very healthy since I consumed white bread instead of wheat bread.  I consumed just over 1400 calories today.  I hope to consume those fewer calories at least once this upcoming week.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Taking my health seriously

Breakfast
Blueberry Nom Noms

Lunch
Brown rice
Corn biscuits
Green beans
Gravy
Baked chicken breasts
Honey

Dinner
Brown rice
Corn biscuits
Green beans
Sugar-free preserves
Baked chicken breasts

Snack 1
Peanut butter crackers

Snack 2
Corn biscuits

As of tomorrow I plan to consume a healthy diet, at least the one healthier than the one above.  I know I need to lose weight.  I also know it is going to be a journey that is well worth it.  I am glad to say that this menu is less than 2000 calories.  I usually don't like to consume that many calories knowing that my weight loss will either be slow or non-existent.  I have made plans to consume healthy foods because of my diabetes and stalled metabolism.  Despite exercise, my diet is poor and I need to make some changes immediately.  I don't want this to be an overnight change.  However some of my eating habits are good like learning to eat in moderation and not drink too many sugary drinks.  On the other hand, I have not cut them out completely and have struggled to eat in moderation.  Hopefully I would like to do a better job of eating healthy than I had before.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

A good thing

Breakfast
Bacon
Scrambled Egg
Blueberry Bagel
Cream Cheese
Strawberry Jam

Lunch
Canned Pineapple

Dinner
Turkey Bacon
Wheat toast
Strawberry Preserves
Scrambled egg

Snack 1
Strawberry Shortcake Bar

I consumed fewer calories than I have in the past and that is a good thing.  I have been more conscious of what I consume and that too is a good thing.  However, eating a whole can of pineapples isn't that great a thing.  I guess I let hunger get the best of me.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Meal Plan summary

Breakfast
Clover Honey
Honey Raisin Oatmeal

Lunch
Chicken Rotini Soup
Black Beans
Wheat bread

Dinner
Black Beans
Chicken Rotini Soup

Snack 1
Orange

Snack 2
Peanut Butter Crackers
2% milk

Snack 3
Oven baked fries

This is what I would call healthy eating out of the past few days.  There are no fried foods but I did consume too many peanut butter crackers.  I have an appointment tomorrow and my eating habits will be examined so to speak.  My doctor always asks me what I consume the day before.  I hope to lose some weight but I realize that I have a long way to go before I lose weight.  I want to lose weight and though it is not as urgent, I need to take my health more seriously and make it more urgent.  Weight loss is very important because I have diabetes and I would like to take fewer medications and thus be healthier.  I hoped that today's menu is the start of a brand new change.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Today's meal plan and summary

Breakfast
Prunes
Orange Juice

Lunch
Peanut Butter Crackers

Dinner
Tuna salad wraps
Apple

Snack 1
Popcorn

I have consumed more than 1500 calories today which is within the 1480-1830 limit that has been proposed for me.  I am not feeling guilty about this. Not at all.  Now I wonder however if there are some changes that need to be made.  I am honest today but admittedly I have not been yesterday.  I am not proud of that.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Meal Plan for today 7/21/14

Breakfast
Toast
2% milk
Raisin Nut Bran
Strawberry Preserves
Orange Juice

Lunch
Beans and brown rice
Chicken Wings

Dinner
Beans and brown rice

Snack 1
Cake
Ice Cream

Snack 2
Honey Nut Cheerios 
2% milk

Snack 3
Peanuts

This is what over 2300 calories looks like.  I am frustrated today because I ate dinner too soon.  I feel like I have blown my diet.  Getting back on is quite difficult for me but I have learned that getting back on the saddle sore is better than staying on the ground sore.  The truth is, I just don't want to try anymore.  I wanna do it.  That is what I thought I was going to do today.  The food wasn't bad food but there were areas where the portions weren't moderate.  However, I cannot say I am miserable, but I would like to eat within a reasonable range.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Serious about my health

Breakfast
Toast
Strawberry Preserves
Orange
Orange Juice

Lunch
Cake
Ice Cream
Chicken Wings
Macaroni and cheese

Dinner
Pasta Salad

Snack
Pineapple Chunks

Today I did a much better job of consuming fruits and vegetables today than I did yesterday.  I realize that when it comes to my food intake, I need to be more serious about my overall health.  I am concerned that because of my weight gain and my poor eating habits that I will have to "start over".  I may need a new strategy of avoiding mindless eating and continually making poor choices.  I have an appointment later this week and I feel like I have to eat healthy not just for me, but for my doctor.  She has gotten at me about this and I wish to hear another report.  I know it sounds crazy but  that is how I feel.  I would like to lose the weight and keep it off.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Unhealthy meal plans

Breakfast
Toast
Strawberry Preserves
Orange Juice

Lunch
Cake
Ice Cream
Pasta Salad

Dinner
Cake
Ice Cream
Pasta Salad

I was wondering if I should make a meal plan.  Maybe I should or maybe I should not.  I tend to consume whatever is available, whether or not it is healthy.  The problem is, I don't get to consume healthy foods and that is my fault.  Ice cream and cake are not nearly as healthy as pineapple chunks.  I wish that I could make wise choices whether or not I can plan my meals ahead of time or not even plan at all.

Friday, July 18, 2014

What I should do

Maybe I should just take a break.  I am failing miserably at planning meals in advance.  It is like I am having a hard time sticking to it.  It was too late to cook breakfast, so ice cream and cake was the order of the day.  I had plenty of that as well as eating unhealthy foods.  Next week, I have an appointment with my endocrinologist and she always ask me what I ate the day before.  Now I am worried.  Starting today, I will take my food intake more seriously.  I am diabetic and I am not losing weight.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Pre-planning for tomorrow

I hope to actually plan my meals for tomorrow.  I planned after the fact which would not go a long ways into helping me to lose weight.  I have gained some weight since last week.  I have not eaten a healthy breakfast. In fact the only thing that was even close to being healthy was the baked spaghetti casserole but the added cheese made it unhealthy.  What I need to do is to pre-plan BEFORE I go to bed late at night tonight, then actually follow that plan, to the letter.  I tend to change my mind often, which would go a long way into ruining the plan that I had for the next day.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Musing for 7/16/14

I wrote about being a vegetarian.  How about if I were to go on another type of diet like Raw Food or South Beach?  I don't like to idea of cutting out foods, though I should.  I don't always eat the right types of foods to lose weight.  I have busted out of a favorite pair of jeans lately and I would like to try them on.  I gained 4 lbs in the past week and my hope is that it is water weight gain or even muscle gain.  I hope this is the case considering all that I have eaten in the past few days.  I feel like calorie-wise, I hit my stride, but in terms of nutrition, I hit a snag.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Musing for today

I ate a lot of fried foods today.  I consumed no fruits, vegetables, lean meats, lean fish, or whole grains as of yet.  I did wonder if being a vegetarian would be a good thing.  Then I realized that I am too much of an omnivore and that I won't last 2 days as a vegetarian. I recognize that my diet is poor.  I need help in recognizing the problems that I have when it comes to the diabetes and my overall health.  I am only comfortable but I want to become healthy.  I gave up on myself too much to slide back and overeat and eat the wrong kinds of foods.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Planned no meals

I took a break from planning meals today.  Needless to say I ate more in desserts than I did in healthy foods. I need to change that and I want to, but I don't know how.  It is not doing me any good that I have diet issues and I am exercising.  I am tired of the "instead of this, I should have eaten this" line.  It is now time to reflect with no procrastination.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Planning meals

Maybe I should just preplan meals ahead of time for at least one week at a time.  I tried to plan daily but my diet is poor and it is not working.  I have not lost any weight and with having Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, it would make weight loss even harder.  I know that I need to change but I don't know how.  I am now thinking about cooking food the night before and making a plan for the day since I make daily plans anyways.  That way, I won't have the common problems I have been having.

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Consuming foods in abundance

I ate gorditas and fries, which I consumed in abundance.  I didn't follow my plan fully which has me a bit bummed, but I have to realize that I tend to change my mind and that all plans are subject to change, so I am okay with a little change.  I am just not hungry, that is all.  I did however, drink a lot of water which should be of benefit to me.  I will check out my past entries and check what I need to do to improve on what I have as far as following a meal plan and eating healthy.  I have to also recall that losing weight is about a combination of diet and exercise with diet being dominant as compared to exercise.  Or is it the other way around?  Or are they both equal?

Friday, July 11, 2014

Peanut butter

I admit that I do consume a lot of peanut butter.  I hate to consume too many calories, but when I plan, it doesn't go into the extra calories I eat per day.  Thankfully I have sparkpeople where I consume those calories.  No matter how difficult it is, I will not give up on making a daily plan as far as calories.  Peanut butter eaten in moderation is a good thing.  However, even consuming a healthy fat not in moderation is unhealthy.  Maybe I should buy some natural peanut butter.  I plan to consume less than 2200 calories a day. I want more than anything to lose weight through exercise and healthy eating.  I read that weight loss and a healthy lifestyle is 80% diet and 20% exercise.  I don't know how that works, but unless otherwise, it means that while exercise is good, it wouldn't do me any good if my diet is not healthy.  That is why a plan is needed.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Summary of this afternoon

I ate a lot this afternoon but overall, my appetite wasn't as good today as I would have liked it to be.  I guess because I wasn't so hungry since I consumed so much food today.  I hope to also look back at my diary and see what is really wrong with my diet.  I feel great because of exercise but because of issues with my diet, I know I am not eating healthy.  It is usually a case of instead of this, then I should have eaten that.  How do I continue to create meal plans that I would like to follow?

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Things that I need and would like to do

I have made no real plans for the entire day, just a part of today.  I overate yesterday and that is why.  I don't want to get to the point where I no longer eat healthy.  Why would I do that like I did last time I tried to lose weight?  I feel like I have failed myself.  Maybe I still have the diet mentality instead of the healthy lifestyle mentality.  I wish that I could just take a break but my definition for taking a break is cheating. Cheating is something that I don't wish to do, but I still do so anyway.  I wish that I could have just one cookie after a meal, but that is not always possible.  Instead of this, I could do something else which is what I say.  I have learned a valuable lesson today as far as planning ahead and following through which is something I usually don't do.

Monday, July 7, 2014

Journal entry for 7/7/14

The macaroni and cheese I ate wasn't that healthy.  In fact, I added more cheese to the macaroni which would make it even less healthy.  I admit that it was quite good but I consumed nearly 600 calories on the macaroni and cheese alone.  I don't feel guilty about what I ate.  In fact, I feel pretty good about what I consumed.  I am very happy about eating more in moderation, well, for the most part.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

I wish

Breakfast
     Yogurt
Lunch
     Beef or chicken
     Vegetable
     Macaroni and cheese
Dinner
     Beef or Chicken
     Vegetable
Snack 1
     Apple
Snack 2
     Fiber One Bar 90
Snack 3
      Strawberries and Whipped Topping

I wish this was the plan that I followed.  I thought I had it together until later this morning.  I was not eating in moderation because I thought that my blood sugar was too low.  So what I did was consume nearly twice as many calories as I should.  I am proud of my eating habits today.  The last few days have been hard.  I would like to change that.

Saturday, July 5, 2014

What I ate today

Breakfast
     Yogurt
Lunch
     Honey Nut Cheerios
     Fiber One Cookie
     Ice Cream
Dinner
    2 Pizza Wraps
    Triscuit crackers
Snack 1
     Raisin Nut bran with 2% milk
Snack 2
     Sweet Potato
     Banana
Snack 3
     Raisin Nut bran with 2% milk

The above is what I ate today.  This is not a record.  In fact, this is much much better than what I have consumed yesterday.  I hope to do a better job tomorrow.  In other words I hope to eat in moderation and eat healthier tomorrow.

Friday, July 4, 2014

I did it. The last two days have been a record....I think

I am taking a break today since today is July 4th.  I already know that I am going to overeat but hopefully not too much.  I don't know how many calories I am going to consume today, but I hope it won't be over 4,000.  Last year, I consumed about 4,200 calories!  That is 2-3 days worth of calories for me.  I hope to be more conservative today.

This is from the journal that I wrote this morning about taking a break.  Well, I did it.  I consumed more than 4400 calories, which is a record for me.  That is what I ate today plus what I ate after dinner yesterday.  It doesn't matter when I added those foods to the menu.  I overate.  I need to plan my meals and do a better job of doing so.  I need to better avoid those trigger foods as well.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Before July 4th

There really isn't much to say except for the fact that I did overeat today.  So, that means that I did not do very well.  Hopefully I will do better tomorrow.  However, tomorrow is July 4th which means it is an off day for me.  I knew ahead of time that I would overeat tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

No guilt however

Instead of two pizza wraps, I should have had one.  Instead of a large helping of strawberry shortcake, I should have eaten half.  But those are the lessons that I need to learn.  I admit that even yesterday I do eat too much within one setting of food.  I am having issues with food and not knowing how to prepare meals for myself. Other than that, I did well and there is no guilt here.