Saturday, November 30, 2013

Noticing things

I hope to consume less than 3000 calories today.  I didn't realize that Thanksgiving food and calories and snacks creep up.  I haven't binged but I ate way too much per meal and per sitting.  That is the problem.  I do tend to eat much in one sitting.  However my snacks are high calorie and I am getting better with the small snack/large meal solution yet my meals are too large.

Friday, November 29, 2013


Wow.  I consumed almost 4000 calories worth of foods.  It is amazing how much the human body can digest.  I ended up with a headache this morning.  I would like to be able to lose all of that weight by eating 1800 calories or less.  It can be done I guess, but it may take no more than 2400 calories.  I am glad to have lost weight yet I feel that I may have gained that 1.8 pounds back.  I am concerned about my weight since I binged a few weeks ago.  I developed headaches as a result because I was not accustomed to eating so much.  I rarely binge anymore which is a good thing.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Before Thanksgiving

I forgot to write an entry yesterday.  I am doing well in my diet thus far.  Tomorrow is another day however.  I did eat way too much cereal with sugar just now however.  I don't feel that guilty about eating that much because I consumed less than 1500 calories today.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Fallen blood sugar levels

I am doing well.  However, my blood sugar levels have fallen so I ate more than 1800 calories today.  Right now, I am chewing gum to make sure I don't have hypoglycemia.  I didn't know about the dangers that I could have had other than the nervousness, shakiness, and the outright hunger.  It is quite sudden and it is not fun.

Sunday, November 24, 2013


I am in need of help.  I am consuming 1800 calories a day yet my metabolism slows.  I hope to have that fixed.  I realize that I eat many fried foods.  I have eaten foods in moderation and I would like to know if I have lost weight.   Maybe life is too short to waste worrying about food intake.  Maybe worrying is helping to slow down my metabolism.  Relax.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Struggled to eat

It was actually a struggle today to consume more than 1200 calories.  That is highly unusual for me.  I actually don't know what to make of this.  I hope that I will eventually lose weight starting today.  My metabolism has slowed down over the last 2 weeks.

Friday, November 22, 2013

1800 Calorie Budget

I have decided to follow doctor's order and no longer struggle.  My goal is to consume 1800 calories per day.  I could easily go down to 1400 if need be.  I have struggled to consume those few calories.  My metabolism is rather slow and I wish to lose weight.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Pork and Green beans

I was just hungry and tired today.  That is the only reason or rather, reasons why I am eating over the 1400 calorie limit.  It is a budget that I go over constantly.  It doesn't bother me that I eat over that limit.  However, it would be nice to eat at that limit.  I don't feel guilty about what I ate or drank today however.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Over the limit

I finally found out why I eat so much.  I guess it is more emotional than anything.  I have denied it not because I was in denial, but because I didn't know any better.  Despite my issues, my emotions have not gotten in the way of my eating habits.  In other words, I usually don't eat emotionally to solve any issues.  I am concerned that I am not losing any weight and I wanted to binge tonight, but I came pretty close.  I ate 500 calories plus over the limit.  I don't feel bad about it, but I know that I can do much, much better.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

How to eat foods

I have made the 1400 calorie mark the first time.  When I say that, I mean that I have barely gone over the 1400 calorie mark.  I did eat a rather huge lunch.  I have to learn that I am to eat like a queen at breakfast, eat like a princess at lunch, and eat like a pauper at dinner.  I finally realize how elitist it is, but I guess it is a way that I will lose weight.

Monday, November 18, 2013

1400 calories?

I binged some today.  Right now, I am struggling to eat 1400 calories per day.  I need to learn "addictive" food such as crackers and potaotes in moderation or not at all.  I have learned a lot not only about diet but about my eating habits.  I also need to exercise more as well.  I am going to stick to the 1400 calories in the next few days or so.  I also plan to even lower consumption of calories.  I have changed my calories low enough.  I eat way too many calories and have gained weight because of it.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Short entry

I tried the best I could with staying under the 1400 calorie limit.  I ate too much chicken today.  I am not feeling too well because I have a slight cold right now.  Hopefully I will feel better.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Today's entry

I do tend to eat over the 1400 calorie limit like I did yesterday.  I did eat in moderation...I did at least eat my snacks in moderation.  However, I should have eaten 200 calories or less in eating my snacks.  One of my problem areas is eating big snacks and sometimes too small meals.  I need to work on that.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Benefits of a Lower Calorie Diet

I have noticed that the less I eat, the more stressful I am.  I do have an urge to eat much or rather more than I desire to eat.  For the time being, I am comfortable with eating a 1400 calorie diet.  It hasn't been much of a struggle so far.  In fact, food doesn't consume my every thought.  I guess it is because of my food intake.  I have been wiser in my food choices as a result.  I don't have any headaches or anything like that.  In fact I feel great.  I can breathe a little easier.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Consuming 1400 calories per day

I am now consuming 1400 calories per day, for now.  I realize that it is normal for people to change the calorie amounts per day.  I don't eat as well as I should.  I need, want, and desire to lose weight.  I have gained some weight from binging.  I have also gotten sick.  I am learning to eat in smaller portions.  Eating that many calories is actually a lot less stressful than I thought, even though I admit that it is a challenge.  It will require a lot of doing what is hard.  I feel pretty good, but I realize that this is a daily thing, not a wedding day thing.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Tuesday's truth

I have had enough of binging and overeating!  I need help.  I need, and want to lose weight.  It is one of my greatest desires.  The reasons are for health and for overall well-being.  I am doing this for myself.  Right now, I plan to consume just 1400 calories starting tomorrow.  I need to be consistent with this.  I just want to lose weight.  I am trying too hard and failing miserably.  I want to start all over, but I rather just start anew.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Monday's entry

I ate some food today that was pretty healthy.  I admit that I  do need to eat more fruits and vegetables.  I also need to read up my blog entries so that I could learn about myself and eat healthier and lose weight.  I am stressed out, which is not good for me.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Unhealthy eating

I have to admit that I ate a lot of unhealthy foods.  I do tend to eat a lot of fried foods.  I believe that eating unhealthy foods do no good for my health.  I am glad that I am under the calorie limit.  I don't however feel guilty about what I ate.

Saturday, November 9, 2013


I did pretty well today.  I do realize, however, that eating smaller portions would be beneficial for me.  Application of certain diet principles or rules would be a great help to me.  Planning in advance would also be of great help to me as well.  Lacking in self-control is an issue for me.  How do I learn to exhibit self-control when it comes to my eating habits so that it doesn't become a vicious cycle?

Friday, November 8, 2013

An End to Frustration

I have given total and complete control over to the Lord.  I was so frustrated that it left me eating more.  I have binged for the past few days and I am proud of it.  I needed to take inventory of my life.  And I also needed to take inventory over my health.  I admit that I am not in the best health.  I gained weight which is causing me worry.  That is not a good thing.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  So I prayed about it.  I needed wisdom and I believe that my prayer will be answered.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Doing what is hard will make things easier

How do I do what is hard?  That is a question I have been trying to figure out.  Maybe it is best that I don't figure it out.

I am not sure what exactly to fix tomorrow, but I realize that I cook and eat way too much food.  That is one way I can make it easier.  I can also store up some of the foods as leftovers instead of throwing them away.  That too will help.

I guess that there are a lot of ways I can do to make life easier for me.  All I have to do is not allow any frustration to get to me.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Doing what I need to do, but it is hard

My real problem is that I have not taken better care of myself.  I am ashamed of logging in my food and drink intake.  I eat too much processed and unhealthy foods in larger amounts than I should have.  I do this instead of eating in moderation.  There are quite a few things that I need to improve upon, but I didn't realize how hard it is to apply.  Applying myself is doing what is hard.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

What is my real problem?

I need to do research on why I binge.  Maybe research is not the best word to use, but I have an issue with how I eat.  I need help.  I don't feel guilty about what I eat.  I need to do a better job of planning my meals.  The problem is, there is so much frustration I feel like giving up.  What is my problem?

Monday, November 4, 2013


I have given control over to the Lord.  I finally need to learn about my eating habits and set attainable goals.  My diet and exercise regimen are in need of being fixed.  How do I deal with calorie expenditure?  How do I deal with calorie intake when the total amount of calories is fewer than what I eat per day?  I have a lot of work to do.  I know that my caloric intake will have to decrease so that means that I will have to eat smaller portions.  After all, I have diabetes and eating in moderation is not just something I need to practice.  I wonder what foods are really diabetic friendly.  What do I leave out?  What and how much healthy foods do I consume?  Those are questions that I have to answer because with my food intake, I admit that I am not taking good care of myself.  I have to be honest about my food intake, even if it is hard to admit.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Keep in mind

How do I overcome binging I have no idea.  I binged today.  I don't feel guilty about binging necessarily but I realize that it is not good for my health.  I feel good about eating food because there is something about the taste and texture of food.  However, I have to keep in mind that I am diabetic.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Eating after going to the store

Every time I go the grocery store I end up hungry.  That is one of the big mistakes I make.  I have learned for myself never to do that.  So what did I do?  Eat like crazy.  Now I have no idea how much I truly ate, even with the journey entry.  Well, today was a lessen of learning.

Friday, November 1, 2013

1800 plus calories

Even though I ate more than 1800 calories today, I realize that I have not eaten the healthiest of foods.  I have a tendency to consume carbs and junk food.  It shows in my diary.  I need help with eating healthier.  I need to eat healthier.  I am just so happy that I ate what I ate however in terms of calories and carebs, however.