Thursday, August 29, 2013

August 29

Well, there isn't too much to say about it today.  I ate too much food and I went over the calorie limit.  I need to stop the cycle and do something about it.

Wednesday, August 28, 2013


I love my protein.  I admit that I eat whatever is available so I need to make healthier choices.  The ice cream was not healthy, I admit.  I wonder if I ate too much protein today.  I have to be more conscious of the choices I make and to exercise more.  I feel like I have lost weight today even though I ate more than 2000 calories today.  I do wish that I could learn to eat better.  I have consumed sugary drinks lately and that is not a good thing.  However, I can learn from my food and drink mistakes.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Whatever is available

I need to rid myself of some bad habits, but I believe that I have done well today.  I didn't overeat.  Nor did I rob myself of anything.  I actually ate something healthy for a change.  I have to outdo the processed foods and the sugary drinks.  I hope to do better tomorrow.

Sunday, August 25, 2013


Yesterday, I wrote about slow weight loss.  I guess that it means that I will have to be patient.  Low and slow is the way to go.  However, I will weigh myself tomorrow.  I hope that I will be out of the 280 pound mark.  I have been there long enough.  I realize that I also eat too much at one time or at least in one sitting.  I rarely if ever go for seconds which is a good thing.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

August 24

I have eaten more in moderation than before.  I have a long way to go.  However, I am learning.  I ate two Philly Cheesesteak sandwiches.  It is not too big a deal except the sandwiches take up a lot of calories.  I have not given God the glory or total control over my eating and overall dieting habits.  I thought I did, but I admit that I have not.  I say this because of my eating habits and also because I am so frustrated.  I have however, ate snacks in moderation.  Not bad.  Not bad at all.

Friday, August 23, 2013

Slow weight loss

I have decided to pick up better habits.  I can't believe I said that.  I want to lose weight, but I guess low and slow is truly the way to go.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Being grateful and examining my eating habits

I will have to be careful with how I eat because of my health.  I am not always careful and I am not always proud of myself when I eat.  I am grateful for the 25-30 pounds that I have lost so far.  I only want to do well for myself.  I am doing well for myself but the problem is I felt that I was losing weight too slowly.  Maybe I am not.  Maybe it was one of those cases where I need to examine myself and where I am really going.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

My examination of what I ate for today

I feel pretty good about what I ate today.  However, I did eat way too much cereal as far as snacks go.  I am addicted to eating cereal it seems.  I could have added sugar to the cereal, but I did not, which was a smart thing to do.  Sugar carries extra calories and that is not good for me.  I am doing better today when it comes to how I eat.  I still need to work on eating in moderation however.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Examination of my eating habits

I am doing okay.  I have nothing to feel bad about.  I just would like to actually eat in moderation.  I am not too sure how.  Maybe if I know what it means to eat in moderation, then maybe I would actually do it.  That is what I have to do, just do it.  Eating in moderation is a very important thing because I am a diabetic.  I believe that I ate in moderation today.  However, I know about eating the wrong kinds of foods not in moderation, but in excess.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Looking at the foods

I don't do this very often, but I am looking at the foods that I have eaten.  I have eaten too small a breakfast and too much in snacks.  I did well during lunch and dinner.  I ate a hearty homemade chicken dumpling soup.  Hearty doesn't always mean fattening, but in this case, it might have been.  The problem is I ate too many chips.  I realize that I ate too much of the bad stuff.  It isn't good that I ate the wrong kinds of foods and eat the right kinds of foods like fruits, grains, and vegetables.  I need to learn to eat in moderation.  As a diabetic, I should now know better.  And now I do.

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Solving a problem

I have learned not to just "deal" with a problem.  I have learned to solve the problem.  I have learned not to be anxious about food.  I still have questions, but I have a few issues that I feel have been solved.  However, they are only solved when I take action.

Saturday, August 17, 2013

I am still here

I will not give up.  I have not given up.  I am still here.  Overall, I didn't eat much food, but I went over my 2220 calorie limit.  I am not stressed out about it.  I should have done a better job measuring out my food.  I did eat a lot of food.  Measuring out food and such has now been ingrained just like calorie count.  I was obsessed with losing weight.  I will weigh myself soon.  I have no real weight goals since I don't know how much I want to weigh.  I have too many shifted goals so my approach has been unstable.  Right now I am a 2220 calorie limit.  I hope to lose some weight, no matter how small, with this weight limit.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Relationship with food

I have eaten more than I should have today.  However, I did eat healthy.  Today taught me one thing and that is that I have a wrong view of food.  I have a love relationship with food yet it seems that it doesn't love me back.  I have a condition in which losing weight would be harder for me than for most women.  That combined with my view of food should spell weight gain due to giving up. But I have hope on my side.  I will not give up.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013


I am taking I'm not.  I am not doing much of anything because I don't know what I am doing.  I ate over the calorie limit and I am not proud of that.  I wish that I could change this.  In closing, I shouldn't have eaten the chips.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013


I need help with self-control and possible binge of food.  I haven't gone over the 2100 calorie limit.  I would now like to lose 20lbs, but it may take me a while.  I would like to lose at least 82 pounds.  I will feel so much better about myself and my health.  I am not sure where else I need to begin except for the fact that I am glad that I lost 29 lbs.  I ate pretty well with 3 servings of fruits.  I do need to eat more vegetables and whole grain.  Maybe I should start a diet plan.  Maybe I should try and make recipes.  Who knows?  It could be the best thing that could happen to my health.

Monday, August 12, 2013

August 12

I ate homemade cheeseburger and macaroni with a hint of barbecue sauce.  That isn't the main problem I had today.  My main problem is that I ate more in snacks than I did in meals, at least about an hour ago.  I need to take my diet more seriously.  I don't joke about it because it isn't funny.  I mean that I need to be more conscious of what I eat.  I practice mindless eating sometimes and I am not proud of it.  I need to take more control of what I eat and to be mindful of what I eat.  I didn't record the extra food that I ate because I take no pride in what I ate.  I wish I could go back and change what I ate.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Struggling with smaller portions

I ate way too much during the course of a day.  I ate more than 3100 calories even though I have now  a 2200 calorie limit.  Maybe I should lower it to 2000 calories.  Less calories consumed and more calories burned means faster weight loss.  I just have issues with eating smaller portions.  I ate way too much early in the day.  I also ate too much during lunch as well.  Other than that, I don't feel guilty.

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Muffins and fries

I did fairly well today.  I ate a bit too many fries however.  I also love homemade blueberry muffins.  They were good and not so sweet.  Today was a day that I could learn from.  Then again, that is everyday.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Lacking in self-control

I have to make changes when it comes to my eating habits.  I lack self-control and I don't know why.  I need to learn about self control if I wish to continue to lose weight.  I admit that I do eat a lot of unhealthy food.  I am trying too hard I guess.  I love to eat and maybe that is a problem.  I lack self-control in all areas of my life and that is not a good thing.  I don't each that much but when I do, I feel guilty afterwards.  Pro-activity and consistency are the keys as well as a healthy diet, exercise, and a strong and willing mindset.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Self-control and restraint

I have done well today.  I did eat more than one burger and one piece of toast, however.  I wish to binge today yet I don't want to.  I need help.  I know I need to.  I feel so bad about that.  How do I overcome binge eating?  Why do I lack self-control?

Wednesday, August 7, 2013


I tried so hard, but I ate 4 gorditas and a host of other foods today.  I also don't feel so good about that.  I should be feeling worse, as in guilty.  Maybe if I were to feel guilty, then I could use that guilt to not binge eat.  I binged today and I hope that I don't binge tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Good news

I lost a little bit of weight and that makes me smile.  What else makes me smile is the fact that I did not binge eat today.  I feel pretty good because I have nothing to feel guilty about.  I admit to not always eating in moderation, but I do admit that I am doing better, and I feel good about that.

Monday, August 5, 2013

The Woods

I am not out of the woods yet, but I am getting better.  Honestly, I consumed more than 2000 calories today.  I am not feeling guilty about it.  I have learned to drink more water, exercise, and space out my meals.  Whenever I go to the store, I tend to overeat and that is a problem that I have to work on.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Overcoming gluttony

How do I overcome binge eating or gluttony?  I overcame it once and I believe that I can overcome it again.  I did not go under the 2000 calorie limit.  I don't feel good about overeating.  I wish that I could go back and change things.  Sadly, I don't have that kind of power.  I have to weigh myself tomorrow.  I hope that all will go well as far as not giving in to eating too much.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Cake and ice cream

I am concerned about the amount of calories I have consumed.  I ate two wraps with meat, olives, mushrooms, and salsa.  I should have eaten just one for lunch.  I am happy to have consumed less than 2000 calories, yet I will learn to eat more in moderation.  Laying off of the pound cake and ice cream would also help.  I should only eat one slice a day of cake and ice cream.  That is one of my favorite desserts.  I just love ice cream especially and don't always eat in moderation.  My breakfast was good but I should have eaten a healthy dinner in place of the dessert.  However the dessert was all that I ate and plan to eat.  I feel okay about what I ate today.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Proud of myself

I surprise myself.  I am still under the calorie limit, yet it seems that I have overeaten today.  I lost a few pounds and I am proud of myself for losing weight.  I am also proud of myself for eating under the calorie limit.  I am just proud, yet I went overboard on the chips.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Hello, August

I have eaten fruits and vegetables today, which is good.  I baked another pound cake early this morning and this time it is lighter because I added coconut oil, so the cake doesn't have much butter in it.  It was quite moist and thus quite good.  It wasn't overly sweet and I ate maybe a couple of slices too much.  I also ate leftovers for lunch.  The portions were healthier which was good.  I also make it a point to drink a lot of water, as I did with more than 8 cups today.  For dinner, I ate soup from Progresso, which is a light soup.  I have learned to eat whatever food I consume in smaller portions.  I feel no guilt in eating the food I ate today.  However, I still struggle with sweets and carbs and eating in moderation sometimes.