Wednesday, April 30, 2014

The Last Day of April

I hope to continue to write about my eating habits.  I didn't consume a large amount of sweets and a small amount of fruits.  I don't just want to eat healthier I actually want to do so.  Despite what I had for "breakfast" this morning, there is still hope for me yet.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

There is hope after all

I realize that while things are not perfect right now, maybe there is some hope after all.  I did feel like a failure, but I brought it on myself.  I wish that I could just prepare in advance without having to worry about going off of the plan and changing my mind.  My idea of breakfast is what I put into my mouth before 11:00 am.  That has got to change.  I picked up a book about healthy eating and the benefits of healthy eating. There are many benefits health wise to food, so maybe I need to know how to better take care of myself with a healthy diet without all of the guilt and stress that goes with poor eating habits.

Monday, April 28, 2014

My feelings on my journey today

There really isn't much to say except for the fact that I may actually be a hopeless case.  I need help.  I am trying, and kept on trying and nothing to show for it.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Registration in my brain

I want no more than to be in control.  However, the biggest pitfall is me and me alone.  I do like to eat doughnuts, cake, and ice cream.  I don't always like to eat apples, oranges, and carrots.  I know that the apples, oranges, and carrots are better for me than the sweets and fried foods.  I have to constantly remind myself what benefits do doughnuts, cake, and ice cream provide?  Other than the taking my health for granted because they taste good, nothing.  There are numerous more benefits to eating fruits and vegetables compared to fried foods and sweets, so why does it not register in my brain?  But the truth is, does finding the answer matter?

Saturday, April 26, 2014

I am not in control

I have taken too much into my own hands, but at the same time, not enough.  I have allowed my appetite to control me instead of the other way around.  I plan to actually go on the Weight Watchers simple plan for a couple of weeks and see how that goes.  I am not losing any weight doing what I am doing.  I eat 2 hot dogs with cheese and a condiments per serving.  It would be nice if I were just to eat one hot dog with mustard on wheat and move on.  I only wish I had the foresight that I just had.  I feel like giving up on food even though it has "given up" on me a long time ago.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Prayer of change

Help me, Lord, to be more honest.  I am scared and ashamed of my mindless eating and my procrastination. I ate a lot of cereal and other starches today.  My breakfast consists of what I ate yesterday: chips, soda, and cookies.  I know that I eat the wrong kinds of foods, but how do I break that habit?  It is hard and I ask for wisdom so that I won't procrastinate.  I would like to know how to eat the fruits and vegetables and fewer proteins.  Things as You know don't come easy for me, so how do I go about doing something worthwhile, at least for my health?  Help me, Lord.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Being honest

It is time for me to be honest.  My self esteem is low because I have gotten lazy over the years.  That is one of the reasons why I am overweight.  I am bloated, tired, and overweight.  That is not a good combination to have.  I am only 5'2" tall and weigh more than 300 lbs.  I would like to change.  I realize that my mother was right.  I do need to change.  I cannot keep having chips and cookies for breakfast and expect to lose weight. I can expect to practice healthier habits starting right now.  I tend to eat whatever is available instead of what is healthy.  I eat too many foods that are good tasting, but I don't always eat what is good for me.  I would like to lose 90-100 lbs, but I simply cannot do that if I eat everything I not.  For now on, I promise to better myself; I know it won't be easy, but it will be worth it.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Uh oh...

Uh oh.  I have only 9 extra WW points this week, and it is only Tuesday.  I know that I have gained weight. I started the day off wrong.  First I ate two doughnuts and half a dozen doughnut wholes, with sprite.  Yep, I started off with an unhealthy 15 points.  I then fixed a huge feast of a midday meal, which I consumed more than 35 points.  I feel like pounding a wall for eating so much food.  Like I mentioned earlier, I have gained weight and I have to take better care of myself before I do end up weighing up to 350, 400, 450, 500 pounds, or greater.

Monday, April 21, 2014

My diet from today and my plan for later

I have eaten leftovers from yesterday.  I would like to say that I have eaten less, but points-wise, I have not. I have also had to deal with a smaller limit than I did yesterday.  I have consumed a few points more than usual today because of the high fat, low fiber foods that I have eaten today.  I realize that I need a diet change but now I have no excuses.  I plan to buy healthier foods within a few weeks and begin the Simple Plan, which is supposed to last 2 weeks.  My plan is to eat healthier and lose more weight.

Sunday, April 20, 2014


I surprise even myself.  Trying to just eat a balanced meal is quite difficult yet pre planning meals seems to make it easier.  Anyways, I feel like eating less and less food right now because of the water that I just drank.  Sadly I have yet to consume enough fruits and vegetables which I should have chosen to consume today since we had green beans.  I ate baked beans instead.  The ham, which was a spiral ham, was I admit very good, yet I have consumed far more than the recommended 3-oz. servings.  If there is a time to learn about food preparation, it is now.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

What I could do

My biggest mistake was not even eating breakfast.  I had chocolate milk, orange juice, and a coffee; I called it breakfast.  Most people would call it unhealthy.  I admit that I do tend to eat unhealthy, even at breakfast. I even eat cake or pizza for breakfast.  I also consumed two burgers, fruits, and lots of juice.  The truth is, while my diet is in need of work, I consume whatever I can afford.  Now if only I can buy whatever is good for me.  Then and only then would I learn to eat better, meaning I would eat healthy foods in moderation.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Large breakfast

I had a rather large breakfast like I did yesterday.  I wished the eggs I made were fried.  The eggs could have been boiled or poached.  Instead, they were scrambled.  I just would like to know about food preparation and why it is so important.  I use loads of butter and margarine in my foods.  I don't feel guilty today so I would like to learn also to deal with what I ate and take this as a lesson, sort of speak.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Today's food

So far, I have just eaten leftovers and a large breakfast.  I plan to consume 100 calories worth of popcorn and some fruit today.  Maybe I should also consume vegetables.  No wonder pre-planning is considered a good and rather wise thing for those wishing to lose weight.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Chicken fried steak

The chicken fried steak was better than I expected.  The steak wasn't rubbery and the coating did not burn, so it was good.  I even consumed the required amount of fruits and vegetables today, which was a good thing.  However, I admit that because my diet is poor, I feel like I am stuck.  I am motivated to change, but how to actually change is difficult.  Planning ahead does not work for me very well, because I was going to cook other things today, but at the last minute, I changed my mind.  Maybe I should do a better job of actually learning how to pre-plan, then maybe I would be less concerned.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

A new plan to lose weight

I would like to start the Weight Watchers Simple Plan.  It looks simple enough.  I have made that decision based on the fact that I need to lose weight and that I can learn how to eat better, which seems to be the goal of the Simple Plan.  I am on the program where one can track points.  I am lucky to be on this program because I have been binge eating lately.  I would like to be able to conquer the binge eating by first learning to eat healthy.  I would like to learn about eating in moderation and keeping myself full after eating.  I am saddened to say that it has been a struggle for me.  My goal is to overcome that struggle.

Monday, April 14, 2014

I am learning

I have finally have it in my head.  Now I am going to write it down on paper.  The extra points that I consume, which is 7 points should be for indulgences.  The rest should be for meals and snacks.  I admit that Weight Watchers won't work if I don't follow the plan correctly.  It is a shame that I didn't bother to do what I should have done earlier, but I am learning.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

How to apply what I have figured out.

I have only one point left in my indulgences.  It is also time to learn to eat better during the day.  I eat small breakfast, large lunches, and medium sized dinners.  I wonder if breakfast is supposed to be the largest meal of the day.  I ate fruit and drank coffee this morning.  I have snacks every day and while I didn't get too many points, I realize that I have lost weight last week.  I hope to do so this week.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

So far today

I made plans to eat leftover etouffee but I changed my mind.  I decide to eat burgers and fries.  I have learned about shopping and how to prepare food in a healthier way.  I hope to not eat too much or consume too many points today.  I am so happy that so far, I have not.

Friday, April 11, 2014


I plan to plan my meals more often.  I do tend to overeat even with the way I planned it.  I tended to consume too many fried foods.  Chicken fried steak is quite good when one knows how to cook it right.  I read the recipe for it and as it turned out, it turned out well.  I am however concerned if it was under cooked or over cooked.  I also consume a lot of fruits and vegetables today as well.  I hope to consume healthier foods and eat cake and ice cream as indulgences.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

What I need to do

The pound cake I consumed today was very good.  I have now over five points to consume.  Weight Watchers works, especially when one eats a lot of fruits, vegetables, and whole grains.  I wish I had learned this a while back.  Indulgences such as cake and ice cream are allowed, but my diet overall needs to be healthier.  I may need to do a better job of actually consuming the food that I plan.  Maybe that will come a long way into losing weight.  Counting points have been a lot easier than counting calories, but I look forward to the day when I would reach my temporary goal.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

What I ate today

Today was a good day despite the amount of food I ate.  I consume exactly 42 points, which is my points limit, nothing less, nothing more.  I consumed some milk products such as yogurt and fat free cream cheese, and fruit.  However, I also consumed some delicious pound cake which was perfect.  It had the right amount of flour and sugar.  It wasn't too sweet; it had the right amount of sweetness.  That was what I was looking for.  Unfortunately, I consumed 9 points worth of pound cake and 10 points worth of shrimp scallop etouffee.  Or it was close to an etouffee.  A serving was worth 5 points each.  I would like to eat healthier, but at least I did not binge today.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Weight Watchers Points

I consumed 64 WW points today.  That is not what I am going for.  However, I have eaten the right amount of fruits and vegetables.  I am here to say that I would have to be careful.  I think that 20+ points are very small for a few more days.  I would like to eat according to what is healthy and learn how to plan meals.  That would be a perfect day for me.

Monday, April 7, 2014

Lessons in eating

I have eaten over an hour and a half ago.  I realize that I have eaten too much at one time.  It is as if I need a lesson in eating in moderation.  I admit that I do love to eat, but I have to realize that food does not love me back.  At breakfast, I ate only Greek yogurt, and only yogurt.  I wonder if I should have eaten fruit along with it or if I did well enough.  Lunch is pretty much a free for all meal and so is dinner, where I tend to eat the same thing that I eat at lunchtime.  It happens at times, but it didn't happen today.  Today is a lesson that I would like to learn for tomorrow.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

My hope is...

Those biscuits were so good.  I did not bake them, but I realize how good they are.  I feel like eating more...well, no I don't.  I just ate and I am full of good food.  It is great to write a food journal, even though I don't always know what to write.  I did consume fruits and vegetables, including some dairy.  I just hope to lose some weight this upcoming week.

Saturday, April 5, 2014


I have learned to control what I have eaten today, even the trigger foods such as pretzel chips.  I thought that buying whole grain, fiber, and pretzel chips would be healthier options.  However, they weren't when not eaten in moderation.  I should plan how much of the snacks I am going to consume.  As far as points go, I think I did a good job today.

Friday, April 4, 2014

Trigger foods

I wanted to eat as little as possible today.  However, veggie burger have a greater amount of points than I expected.  I really believe that it is possible to carry on the foods that I ate today to the next day, especially trigger foods.  However, if I wish to lose weight, I have to be totally honest.  I admit that I would leave out extra foods instead of adding them and carry them on to the next day.  I doubt that it would matter because I ate a lot of those trigger foods today.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Taking care of myself

I want to take care of myself.  I haven't been and that includes my eating habits.  I have not taken care of myself and it has a while since I have.  I admit that I have gained weight because of a bad diet and a lack of exercise.  I am more worthy than this.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Shopping habits

My food intake is heavier when I go shopping.  Part of what I need to do to take care of myself is to eat healthier.  It is too bad that I did not do such a thing.  I purchased the very trigger foods that I overate today.  I don't feel guilty but I am not proud of it.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Food intake

I tend to eat what is available to me.  Unfortunately, a lot of the food is processed and usually not healthy. Today unfortunately is no exception.  I do need to no longer procrastinate for my health depends on it.