Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Pretty well

I ate pretty well today.  The food I ate did not make me feel bad.  I have no guilt, that is for sure.  I am glad that I consumed more vegetables than I did yesterday.  I have been told that my diet was atrocious.  I hope that my diet will become less atrocious.  I realize that I have got to cut back on white foods, sweets, fried foods, starches, and processed foods.  I have PCOS and these foods could have a negative impact on my health because I also have diabetes.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Homemade pound cake

I should not have eaten all of that homemade pound cake. It was probably the best homemade pound cake I have eaten in a while. I am glad, however, that I am under the 2000 calorie limit. I have eaten a record four slices of cake.  I am not proud of that, but I am not ashamed either.  The cake should have been more than a treat.  I admit that I eat too much of the bad stuff.  It wasn't that sinful, but it is not good, I admit.

Monday, July 29, 2013


I admit that I have eaten many snacks today instead of a healthy lunch.  I am struggling with eating processed foods.  I would like to lose weight the healthy way.  I feel good about the calories that I am eating today.  I am under the 2000 calorie mark.

It makes me smile because I am doing well under this new "system" that I have developed.  I have decided, with God's help, I believe that 2000 is though rather too much to eat, is a good limit.  It doesn't set me up for failure.  I believe that calories should be considered a daily budget.  I am not as obsessed with calories anymore and that is a good thing.

Sunday, July 28, 2013


I have done pretty well, except for the fact that I don't always consume the amount of fruits and vegetables I consume.  I am proud that I don't eat as much processed foods as I once did.  I have a long way to go before I can say that I eat healthy and it feels good.  I do, however, feel good about today.  I am under my calorie limit.  That makes me smile.

Saturday, July 27, 2013

July 27

I don't feel guilty about how I ate today.  I feel pretty good.  I am concerned that the binge eating is a part of why I have difficulty losing weight.  PCOS isn't a killer, but it is a serious condition that I have to take seriously.

I ate my share of healthier, low calorie foods and vegetables today.  I am glad about that.  Unfortunately, the foods that I ate were two servings instead of one.  Soup doesn't fill me up however.  I guess it is because the soup I ate doesn't have much fiber and neither do the saltines.

I don't mean to eat so much food and I feel guilty at times when I do.  I am happy to write that I ate less than 2000 calories today and that I plan to keep it up.

Friday, July 26, 2013

July 26

I am a diabetic with a number of health issues including high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  I want to fit into smaller clothes.  There is this dress that I want to wear, but wearing it right now would make me self-coscious.

Today, I am looking at everything I have been eating and drinking and I have noticed a pattern.  The less water I drink, the unhealthier my diet tends to be.  I don't know why that is, but I admit that my diet is in need of improvement.  I have been drinking more water and eating less food, but I have struggled as of late because I wasn't sure how many calories I was supposed to eat.

My calorie budget is 2000 calories which would be reasonable.  I don't have to eat 2000 calories per day, which would equal very slow weight loss.  This was the cause of my frustration.  I tend to eat between 1500-2000 per day.

I feel good about my eating today.  However, eating a whole can of soup may not the be healthiest thing I ever did.  Drinking green tea, on the other hand, is. 

This blog is a food and diet blog which is also about my opinions about food and dieting.  My mindset  was very negative and now I have hope.  I may always have struggles, but at least I know what to do.  I am now motivated than ever to continue on my weight loss journey.

Thursday, July 25, 2013


Yesterday was quite short.  I am not so sure why it so short but it was awfully short.  Anyways, I think I did well because I got in enough servings of fruits, beans, and proteins for the day.  I ate lunch later in the afternoon because I ate half a watermelon this morning, which amounted to five servings.  I am satisfied with what I have eaten and I am under the 2000 calorie limit.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

July 23

I ate a rather large lunch today.  How I am going to eat the rest of the day, I don't know.  Yesterday was a good day because I ate half of my calories during half of the day.  I do feel like I am not eating more or less than I should have been.  I do worry too much about my food intake.  I feel like I allow food to dictate and dominate.  I have been stressed out about it lately and it has caused me to gain weight instead of lose weight.  The best thing I can do to lose weight is to take my time and be mindful.

July 22

July 22

I do believe that eating a whole can of soup.  Yes, it was progresso light, but I have to learn to eat in moderation.  It was a good day.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

July 21

Giving up would be the worst thing to do.  I am happy to say that I have yet to give up.  I have not waved the white flag of surrender.  I drank plenty of water and ate plenty of vegetables today.  I am proud of myself today.  I went over the calorie limit, but I am comfortable with that somehow.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Unhealthy habits

I need to eat healthier foods for all of my meals and limit the junk and processed foods.  I sometimes eat as if I have no will power.  Lately, I have not been losing weight in a healthy fashion.  That is a painful look at how I have treating myself lately.  I feel like giving up.  It is great that I am under the calorie limit, yet it is not great that I don't practice mindful, healthy eating.  Having Tostitos for breakfast and a sandwich and more chips for lunch is not a healthy way to eat.  I should have had some fruit or some cereal for breakfast and then a sandwich and a smaller portion of chips or vegetables.  That would be good.  Maybe I should no longer eat cereal or binge on snacks most of the day either.  I am only hurting myself.

Friday, July 19, 2013

Surrender 2

I overate just an hour ago.  I just feel like I want to give up.  I cannot take this anymore.  I ate a peanut butter-jelly sandwich, chips with cheese, and craisins.  Why did I do it?  What was I thinking?

Thursday, July 18, 2013


I give up.  I am basically starting over.  I have eaten pretty much everything in sight.  I cannot take it anymore.  I am surrendering.  I am waving the white flag.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

July 16-July 17

I need to catch up.  I overate.  That is okay.  Really?  I feel okay.  All I have to do is pick myself up and dust myself off.

July 17, 2013
I will not allow the stress of yesterday to get me down.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

July 15

I hope that i can keep up with the pre-planning of foods like I have been.  It has been of great benefit to me thus far.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

July 14

Today, I feel like I want to eat.  I have had cravings at night but the best and healthiest thing for me to do is not give in to that craving.  I have eaten later at night which adds extra calories which I do not need.  I have no calories in my budget left which is good.  I have lost a few pounds this week and I hope to lose even more.  I ate all of my snacks this morning.  I should have spaced them out.  However, I spaced out my meals which is a good thing.  I managed to eat pineapples and kale.  The fact that I ate that made me smile.  However, I ate a lot of fried food, or at least more fried food than usual.  To eat healthy, I either need to limit or cut out sweets completely.  There are some things that I have done right and other things that I need to do.  I am learning however.  That is what is most important.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

July 13

I need to count everything I eat and drink.  Nibbling is something that I do quite often and so is consuming fruit juices at night.  I sometimes overeat only to carry it over to the next day.  That is not good for it is dishonest.  I need to log food in what I eat today and learn from whatever mistakes I make that day.  I am glad that I did not do that today.  I feel pretty good about my diet but I need to lay off of the bread, nutella, and peanut butter.  I also need to log them in next time.

Friday, July 12, 2013

July 12

I consumed more than 1760 calories, which is well over my 1580 calorie limit.  In other words, I was overbudget and have been for the past couple of days.  I am okay with that strangely enough, but I want to eat less than that per day if I wish to lose two pounds per week.  I also need to exercise more.  I made the mistake of eating a large bowl of cereal and an eclair.  Other than that, I did pretty well today.  I ate my share of fruits and vegetables but the ingredients were either fattening or I ate too much food along with the fruit.  I have been struggling to lose weight and today I have learned not only not to go overbudget, but to learn how to eat healthier and in moderation.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Today was pretty good

I am using myfitnesspal and according to that website, I have one calorie left.  I am eating 1580 calories.  I did very well today, though nibbling is a problem of mine.  I know that it could be extra calories.  Also, I realize that calories equal budget and I am well-within my budget.  I needed to change my mindset when it came to losing weight.  I need to affirm myself and not stress out about losing weight.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Today was a good day.

Today was a good day.  Strangely enough, I don't feel so deprived today.  I did eat three large biscuits which I should not have done.  I prayed about what I needed to pray about.  I became frustrated at the plateau I was and still am in.  I lost more than 25 lbs yet I was not losing weight quickly enough.  I really need to lose weight, but I will lose the weight for myself and no one else.  Today I ate only 1459 calories which is a far cry from the thousands of calories I have eaten in the past three days.  I will definitely keep it up.  I have to live each day one at a time.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


I have an issue with gluttony.  As a Christian, I should be taking better care of myself as my body is supposed to be a temple of the Lord.  I am to represent Jesus Christ in all areas of my life including my body.  I prayed about it and I believe that God has answered my prayers.  I ate so much between 12:30 and 1:00 I felt like giving up.  I couldn't eat anymore today because of it.  I don't know if it is because of more overeating fears or because my prayer has been answered.

July 8

I have eaten well, but some of my food intake will carry over to today.  I need to eat less than 200 calories per snack.  A 300 calorie snack unless it is a sandwich is way too much.  I have not eaten a lot yesterday but at least I lost some weight which is good.  I ate twice baked potatoes which is a lot of calories, but at least the potatoes were small enough.  What made them fattening was the fact that I added a lot of fattening ingredients like sour cream and ranch dressing.  I don't feel horrible about eating the potatoes but I should not have added those ingredients.  I am glad to have eaten some fruits and vegetables I think.  I need to eat more.  I realize that I don't eat healthy at times and that doesn't make me feel good.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

July 7

Maybe I should have counted all of the food I ate to stabilize my blood sugar.  I feel ashamed of eating extra food.  Right now, I am consuming 1830 calories for now.  I might have to change the number of calories every once in a while.  How long do I have to change the amount of calories, I don't know.  All I know is that I am at a very frustrating point in my life and I am more than motivated enough to lose weight.  I more than likely at around 3000 calories today.  I ate a lot of food today, yet I realize that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  I had that verse in my head as motivation.  I truly feel good about how I ate today despite the fact that I went over the 1830 calorie limit.

July 6

I feel great about Saturday.  Yesterday was a pretty good day.  I realize that I need to eat smaller portions of food and to eat the right kinds of foods.  Is it about calories or about carbs?  What is it really all about?

Saturday, July 6, 2013

July 5

I have eaten a lot of food and this time, I don't feel so good about it.  I would like to lose weight, but I know that I cannot eat the way that I have been and lose weight that way.  I ate more than 4000 calories; I need to lay off of the barbecue for a while.  I have so many healthy food.  It is time I eat more of that and less of the barbeque.

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Happy Independence day

What is to be expected is that I will over the 1800 calorie goal limit.  I did just that.  I went over the limit...way over.  I ate more than 4100 calories worth of food today and I don't feel so bad about it.

July 3

I overate on snacks.  I on July 4th am truly hungry.  Tomorrow, I will be weighing myself and it has me concerned.  I gained weight since last week according to my scale.  It makes me wonder if I am doing well or if I am doing poorly.  I believe that I could do better especially when it comes to eating fruits and vegetables.  I am not ashamed but I don't feel so great about eating too many peanuts either.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

July 2

I feel very good today about what I ate.  I managed to eat an apple, but what makes me so happy is the fact that I ate my total calorie limit of 1870 calories.  I use myfitenesspal and this is the budget that they gave me.  I hope that all will be well tomorrow.  I am very proud of myself.

However, I shouldn't have eaten so much of the cheeseburger macaroni dinner.  I ate twice as much as the recommended serving which means that I ate 2 servings of that.  I should have spaced those servings out. 

But other than that I did well today.

Monday, July 1, 2013

July is just beginning.

I feel pretty good as I have eaten less than 1800 calories today.  I am proud that I have accomplished something.  I managed to eat an orange a minute or so ago, which would cover one serving of fruits. I feel good about what I have eaten and what I have drunk or drank.  I feel fine about realistically eating between 1700-1800 calories per day.  What I don't feel good about is that I have gained weight since I last weighed myself.  I realize that I have some fixing to do when it comes to both diet and exercise.  I have had four hot dogs, 2 plain with ketchup and mustard and 2 chili dogs.  I made the chili this weekend.  I am surprised that that was worth less than 600 calories total.  I feel okay about it since I was satisfied.  I need to drink sugar free powdered drinks instead of having them sweetened.  I also need to follow the doctor's orders, which I haven't always done.  I don't eat enough fiber, fruits, or vegetables.  However, I plan to go to the store to buy those things tomorrow.  I would like for my diet to improve and maybe to exercise with greater intensity.