Friday, January 31, 2014

My strengths and weaknesses

My eating habits need to change.  In fact, I need and want to change.  I may have lost weight, but I believe that I still eat the wrong kinds of foods.  I don't eat enough fruits and vegetables.  In fact, I don't eat enough whole grains either.  I would like to try low-calorie foods that are at least healthy.  I feel like I should just give up, but I am not which makes me smile.  I feel good about what I ate however.  I would just want to consume also, more fiber.  I consume too much sugar and sodium and not enough fiber.  I am diabetic and I now realize that healthy foods come in a greater variety than I thought.  I have to realize that I also need to do a better job with eating in moderation.  I realize also that I need to make small changes.  I am on Weight Watchers and I have to remind myself that I need to be healthy and eat healthy.  I am getting healthier but not healthy enough.  I would like to know where to start.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

I did well.

I did pretty well.  I am well under the limit, which is either good or bad.  I am supposed to consume 42 points today.  I only consumed 31 points, which is probably not enough but I am not guilty of feeling guilty because I overate.  It is still a struggle, but I believe I can do anything that I put my mind to it.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Struggling, but getting better.

I realize that I have a major struggle to eat a lot of healthy foods, especially fruits and vegetables. I am not sure I know what I am doing.  I am struggling to do so.  Thankfully I am not struggling to the point where I desire to give up.  Wanting or desiring to give up has lead me to the point I am in now.  I ate 5 or 6 servings of vegetables which is good.  However, I eat a lot of unhealthy foods such as a large amount of sweets.  I need to identify my trigger foods so that I won't overeat.  Losing weight is a journey, but it is a journey that is worth it.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Don't give up

I am still figuring out what I need to do to exercise everyday without giving up.  The problem with me is that I tend to give up easily after a few days.  I tend to procrastinate, do the work, and then quit.  The truth is, there seems to be little time left.  Today I don't feel guilty about what I ate.  However, I would like to plan meals.  I would also like to not only set goals, but to live them.  I need to learn to apply those goals to my life and keep things simple.  I just hope that I don't feel like giving up.

Monday, January 27, 2014


I have to realize that my health is dependent upon diet and exercise.  I mulled over exercising.  I know that I need to eat better and exercise.  One of the problems is that eat what is available.  I don't eat mindfully.  It sounds like I am excusing unhealthy behavior but it is the truth.  I have no clue how unhealthy my bad habits are.  I am a diabetic and I need to take better care of myself.  I need to follow the goals that I set for myself.  In the past, it was too high to attain or too low.  I am all for a happy medium.  In other words, I needed to be realistic.  I have to push myself yet be realistic.  I think that I did well today.  I ate all of my points and hopefully I will lose weight this time.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Relaxing my mind

It took me long enough.  It takes me a while or at least a light bulb moment for good advice or sound instruction to sink in.  All I had to do was keep it simple.  Tomorrow, I plan to plan my meals and exercise.  If only for 10 minutes, I will exercise.  I am now wondering if I should plan and exercise daily in writing.  I do complain about the wrong things.  Instead of complaining, I will turn things over to the Lord's care and to just take the time to be thankful.  I just think complaining has brought me down.  It has done nothing good for me, none at all.  I only have 42 points for now.  But I also have a large "deficit".  No one who is spending money on a diet program should have a "deficit" as large as I have.  Planning meals is what will do me some good. 

Saturday, January 25, 2014

What I have learned from this week

Right now, I just finished eating bread.  I realize that this is a lesson.  If I am going to spend money on a program, the least I could do is not to overeat.  I am 14 points so far below the point average.  I obviously take full responsibility for what I have done.  I don't feel bad.  However, like I mentioned earlier, it is still a lesson well learned.

Friday, January 24, 2014


I overate today.  There is always tomorrow.  I alone made that choice and I hope to never do it again.  Weight Watchers has taught me many things so far, such as how to eat and what to eat.  I am thankful to God that now I am not frustrated and on Weight Watchers.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Healthy Eating-Keep it simple

I don't know why, but eating healthy is rather difficult for me.  However, I am more than ready to eat healthy and stay with it.  I have lost weight and I feel great about that. I eat too much of the bad stuff and not enough of the good stuff.  I also eat too much of the good stuff.  I realize that smaller portions is necessary to lose weight.  I need to control my eating.  I should not expect to eat a sandwich with a large bowl of cereal.  What the problem is, it's that I need to learn how to eat, and what to eat, and when to eat food.  I realized that food consumption has been allowed to control me.  I need help but I realize that small changes make a big difference.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Yesterday I wrote about eating properly.  I realize that first I need to eat healthy so that I can eat properly.  I have little idea how to eat healthy.  I would like to know about healthy eating and fitness.  I would like to be anything but a stick in the mud when it comes to how I live life.  When it comes to food and everything else, I have gotten too comfortable.  I need to get out of my comfort zone, whatever that may be.  I ate a large lunch and a very small breakfast.  It was over 20 points. Now that is a large meal.  Allow me to reflect on that for a moment, if not for the rest of the day.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Eating properly

I am very happy but right now I am having a hard time with eating the proper food combinations.  The problem has been that I have always had so much information that it has gotten confusing.  How do I keep it simple when I had so much information?  I have yet to learn that.  I have been motivated to lose weight and to keep it off.  I would love for nothing more than to eat and thus be, healthy.  I finally realized that eating in moderation and also eating the most fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and dairy are key to eating healthy. Also, I will not forget that eating the right food combinations are a part of that as well.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Weight Watchers

I am happy to say that I understand what I need to do.  I need to be consistent. I have been on Weight Watchers before and I was frustrated.  I was not as patient back then.  I wish I had stayed longer, but that is my goal now.  I want to do well on this program.  I have done better to eat the right combination of foods and to eat within my point limit.  I have learned not just about what to eat, but how to eat.  Diet has been a big problem as to why losing weight was such a journey.  I lost almost 30 lbs and gained most of that weight back.  I am a diabetic and I don't wish to go back.  I am no longer as frustrated and now I understand what I need to do.  I have now made better decisions by setting realistic goals.  Now, all I have to do is follow them.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Learning a lesson or two

In my first full week, I now realize that I need to eat smaller portions than I have been.  I wonder if that is to be expected considering I binge eat quite a bit.  I also give in to my cravings.  I hope that everything has been properly calculated.  I want my calculations to be accurate.  I still have a lot to learn, but I think that I could do worse.  As of right now, I am not frustrated on my weight loss journey.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Food combinations

Okay, here is the score.  I have done well, yet there are times when I need to know how to fix a meal. Fixing a meal means to determine which foods should go with what.  In other words, I can't just eat two or more things and call it a filling breakfast.  They may be filling, but does that constitute good habits, yes or no?  I would eat 2 servings of cereal with a sandwich.  If I had just one serving of cereal and no sandwich then that would be better.  That is just an example.  Having approximate food samples would be very important in how I need to eat.  I have a lot to learn in this journey.

Friday, January 17, 2014

How I am progressing the first week on WW

I guess that I did well for the first week.  So far, I am happy with what I have done.  There are things that I will like to learn.  I have to learn not to have trigger foods all around me.  Trigger foods include ham, ice cream, frozen yogurt, snacks, and crackers.  It is hard to eat just one or enough around me.  They have enough points for me to not eat too many of them.  I ate so much yogurt today that it doesn't even seem like I ate yogurt.  It was so sweet for one thing, too sweet to be yogurt even.  I also ate a lot of peanut butter, which was about 5 points.  Planning my meals are also beneficial, even when I am shopping.  But fruits, vegetables, and whole grain are what I need to consume more than I do.  So far, I am proud of my progress.

Thursday, January 16, 2014


Well, I will not quit.  So far, today is a day that I will do well.  I understand that the key is to limit the "bad stuff" and eat more fruits, vegetables, lean meat, and whole grain.  As someone who has PCOS and also diabetes, eating a healthy diet is very important to me.  I also plan to set more realistic goals for me.

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Day 6

How do I define life skills?  It has to do with dieting for me.  It also has to do with changing my mind and controlling how to think and what I think about food in this case.  I realize that sweating the small stuff is stressful, but so is lacking in control.  I have eaten more than I should today and I have eaten too much.  I want to continue on the program and lose weight.  The last thing I wish to do is quit.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Don't sweat the small stuff

I have learned not to sweat the small stuff.  There are some day where I will overeat and other days where I won't eat so much.  I have gone by a points system which has been helpful for me.  I have had many fears about my weight loss but I have the reason that I was often on diets.  Diets for me work only for a while. Going at it alone also helps only for a while.  I would like to think that the program I am on will last longer than a while.  I  have to realize that I will have to do the hard work, which so far is paying off.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Today is a good day.

I have eaten more fruits and vegetables in one day than I probably have in one year.  I have also been disciplined in one week than I have in one month...okay four days.  I didn't realize that I could be so disciplined.  I am doing well since I lost 4 pounds so far.  I hope to continue to lose weight and eventually keep it off.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Third day

This is my third day of joining Weight Watchers and so far, so good.  I will weigh myself tomorrow.  I would like to be wished a bit of luck.  I weighed myself last week and I just want to do well for myself.  I want to be on the right path and so far, so good.  I have not been frustrated so far, so I am off to a good start.  I am at the beginning however.  Who knows what the future may hold.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Day 2

Today is day 2 of being on Weight Watchers again.  I was on the plan for nearly 2 years but all it left me was total frustration.  I wonder if that meant that I had the wrong mindset to lose weight.  Was I ready or motivated enough?  Back then I would have said the same thing I would have in the past.  However, was I in denial back then?  I will never know.  I am in need of greater energy, motivation, and guidance.  I would like to continue the plan for as long as I live.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Joining WW

Today I joined Weight Watchers.  The first thing I have learned is that I have eaten the wrong kinds of foods.  I know that this is true and has been for many, many years.  I definitely want to lose weight.  So far, I have not been eating a healthy diet.  I drink sugary drinks, eat fried foods, and sugary foods.  I crave breads as well as pancakes and comfort food.  I have taken too much pride in eating macaroni and cheese.  Those are the things that I have been working on.  I also gave up on myself.  Now is the time to not give up on myself.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Putting it into practice

How to put what is on my mind with the wisdom I have is harder to put into practice than I thought.  What was I thinking?  I need help.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014


I wonder if I am procrastinating too much.  I want to go on Weight watchers yet I cannot afford it at the moment.  I ate somewhat over the limit today.  I have learned mentally to eat healthy but putting it into practice is very hard.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Giving up, but in a good way

I don't or no longer, trust myself to lose weight.  As a spiritual person, I left it in God's hands.  I want to do things God's way.  I have been frustrated for a long time and I want to follow the doctor's orders.  I didn't realize that all it took is to diet and exercise.  It pains me to write that I tend to make the simple complicated.  I feel so much better and calmer today than I have in a while.

Monday, January 6, 2014

My feelings about today

I didn't overeat today, or so it seems.  I do eat a lot of pasta and less fruits and vegetables.  I need to lose weight and change my eating habits.  I gained nearly all of my weight back.  I need to start over and not allow myself to become frustrated.  I have plenty of reasons, or rather, motivations to lose weight.  I don't know if I should approach this slowly or if I just "dive in".

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Clearer mind

Yes!  My desire is back.  I have every reason in the world to lose weight.  I hope to never take myself or my issues for granted again.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Issues with my weight

I have an issue within myself.  My weight has been a problem and I need help.  Give me the real desire and motivation that I need to lose weight.  It seems to me that I have all but lost my desire to lose weight.  For the time being, I wish to lose 20 lbs., but I have grown concerned.  I want to lose weight, but I am not sure how to go about it or where to begin.  I have a problem with binging and health issues.  I am not a healthy person and I feel like sometimes I am barely healthy.  I have grown tired of the wheezing and the lack of mobility.  I have given up and I don't wish to be defeated no longer.  God, help me.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Give up

I have an issue with my weight.  I gained most of my weight back.  I feel really sad about it.  I want to lose weight and I know I need to lose weight.  My motivation is not as great as it once was.  I need some help to gain my momentum.  I have a binging issue. I really need help.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Now is the time

My desire is to lose weight, but I don't know where and when to begin.  I just can't stop eating.  I have been binging and it has been hard to stop.  All I know is now is the time.