Sunday, September 29, 2013

If only

I admit it.  Today I did not eat in moderation.  I wished I had eaten only one drumstick, 1/4 cup of raisins, 1 ear of corn, and half of a box of ramen noodles.  That would have saved me at least 650 calories, and I would not have gone over the calorie limit, but it isn't that much.  I have learned from today to eat in moderation and put it in action. My health is important to me so I would like to eat in moderation daily and not just on weekends or at certain mealtimes.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

How I feel about what I ate.

There really isn't much to say today.  I ate not in moderation but I ate below the calories limit.  In fact, I ate below several hundred calories under the limit.  I wish that I did a better job eating the chicken in moderation. The barbecue sauce was a bit too much but I don't feel too guilty about what I ate.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Meal plans

I didn't do much exercise but at least I ate fairly well.  My dinner was a large one but I don't feel guilty about eating it.  I feel okay about it.  I wasn't sure if I was going to consume a modest amount of food.  I mostly do a good job eating a modest consumption of food at most meals but sometimes at lunch time is when I ate the bulk of my calories.  I am struggling with eating in moderation at that time on most days.  It is even hard constructing an advanced meal plan throughout the day.  I guess it is that I have underlying issues but that could not be it.

Thursday, September 26, 2013


Eating starches and sweets are two weaknesses of mine.  I ate a lot of rice today and I don't feel guilty about it.  Yes, the food was good, but I have learned to be more mindful of what I ate.  It wasn't easy, but I my health will thank me for it.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Learning to eat in moderation

I have to swallow my pride.  I ate nearly 200 calories over the limit.  I want to lose weight, but my diet is still poor.  I need to make some changes.  I am only mindful of what I eat after I eat.  I need to be mindful before and during my meals.  I wanted to carry over to tomorrow.  Exercise helps, but diet is also required to lose weight and keep healthy. 

I am learning to eat in moderation.  However, I have a long way to go.  I don't want to put too much pressure on myself because I don't wish to binge.  Binging on food does me no good.  I have to learn to control my hunger and my hormones.  It will be a hard journey so eating in moderation is key.  I have to work extra hard in order to lose weight.

I finally realize that it is my health that is the reason why I need to learn to eat healthy, and in moderation.  I am glad that I have lost weight, so I am doing something right.  However, I am at a plateau and that is frustrating.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

September 24

I am finally understanding what it means to eat in moderation.  I wrote the blog about yesterday very early this morning.  I forgot to write in my blog yesterday because I went to bed early, very early.  I had a good time walking and doing zumba.  Zumba is quite fun and quite tiring.  Sadly, I realize how out of shape I truly am, but realizing that is worth it.  I will soon be in shape.  Diet and exercise is not hard or at least easier than I thought.  So is eating in moderation.  I ate a variety of foods today yet there were times when I wish I had eaten half of this and a quarter of that.  But it is too late to do what I could have done in the past.  I have learned that the present is a gift and that life is a series of choices.

September 23

Eating in moderation is harder than I thought when it comes to some foods.  Maybe I should just learn to eat in moderation.  I need to first define what it means.  Eating two pouches of healthy foods doesn't even qualify as eating in moderation especially when it comes to having ranch dressing as the dressing or replacement for mayonnaise.  I forgot to type it in yesterday, so this is another case of forgetting to catch up.  I don't feel great about not eating in moderation.  In fact I felt like I could do better.  Instead of eating two pouches of tuna, I could eat one pouch of tuna with light dressing and celery.  Looking for alternatives could help me a mighty long way.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Sunday Dinner

I admit it.  I ate way too much at lunchtime.  I also ate a sandwich that I logged in last night.  It was a dishonest thing to do and now I wish I hadn't done that.  I overate two days in a role so I hope that it doesn't derail my weight loss.  I have been in a plateau for a while, but I don't feel bad about it.  I feel good about the food I ate.  I baked chicken instead of fried it and that was a good thing.  Eating fried foods is not good for my health being that I am a diabetic.  Learning to eat in smaller, more moderate portions isn't as easy.  It feels like a diet to me.  I hope to learn more and change my mindset.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

So far

So far, eating in moderation has been a good thing for me.  It is sad that I had to struggle with this.  I found that I don't have to give up.  Giving up would have been the worst thing I could do, especially with my health.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Today was good

Today, I have eaten a modest number of calories because I  have eaten in moderation.  Well, at least I tried to.  Exercise has also been helpful.  I want and need to lose weight that I pushed myself to exercise.  I hope to do better next time.  I got winded after a while but it felt great to exercise.  It also feels good to do what I am supposed to do, and that is to eat healthy and exercise.  This is quite interesting because it is my definition of coming a long way.  However, I need to limit or stop eating the sugary drinks.  I felt good about what I ate today so I felt no guilt.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Eating in moderation

Yep, I have not done a good job of eating in moderation or laying off of the health foods.  I admit that food is a big weakness of mine and that is why this plateau I am on is a major struggle.  I have little understanding of the importance of eating in moderation.  It is because I have no idea how to eat in moderation enough.  What is the purpose of eating in moderation?  What does it mean to eat in moderation?  How do I eat in moderation?  I want to be healthy and whole, but first I must answers to these questions.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Lay off the unhealthy foods

I forgot to make an entry yesterday.  However, I won't forget today.  I feel pretty good about what I ate.  However, I need to eat healthier, so that I can actually lose weight.  I am frustrated about that but I brought it on myself.  Like I said, I need to eat healthier.  That starts with not frying foods since I ate too many of them.  I also need to lay off the high calorie foods.  I have a host of conditions and illnesses and I should know better.  I would like to change, but I need to start off slow.  Boiling, sauteing, and baking are much better options than frying.  My health depends on what I eat.

Monday, September 16, 2013

How I am feeling

I feel so much better physically and emotionally.  I ate pretty well and I exercised.  I did in fact walk for half an hour and my mind has been clearer.  I have laid off of the snacks, but I need to lay off of the soup.  At least I ate fruits and vegetables today. 

Saturday, September 14, 2013


I felt good after I ate all of those foods.  I need to lay off of the spaghetti and meatballs however.  This is true, despite all of the turkey meatballs and the whole grain pasta.  But I need to eat in moderation.  Does one learn to eat in moderation or does one just do begin to eat in moderation cold turkey?

Friday, September 13, 2013

Doing something right

I guess I can be faithful to something and not give up easily.  I finally figured it out.  It is about the mindset and it is about just doing it.  I knew that already but I didn't realize how easy it truly was.  It was not smooth sailing at first.  I wanted to lose weight and I hope to continue doing so.  I will lose weight slowly.  Trust me, I have and I was frustrated.  I need to keep laying off of the sweet and fried foods however.  I feel okay about what I ate however.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

There's hope for me yet

I exercised today and I feel pretty good.  I ate pretty well and I am not so hungry.  However, I need to eat less and exercise more.  I hope to get out of this weight loss plateau soon.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Not a bad day

I have to learn to eat food in smaller portions and in smaller increments per day.  That could keep me from the late night binging.  It is working.  I am eating in moderation now, though it is as if I am still learning.  I feel great about what I did today.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Not so uneasy

I am doing okay.  Today is a day of another revelation.  That revelation is that I eat way too much for lunch and sometimes not enough for breakfast.  I even thought about making french toast for breakfast this morning.  This is despite the fact that I don't even like French Toast.  I can only imagine how much fat and calories I would have consumed eating that.

Monday, September 9, 2013


Despite the high calorie high fat food I ate, I don't feel so guilty.  In fact, I felt good.  I am learning more and more to eat even unhealthier foods in moderation.  I have to admit, though, it is not easy.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Decent day

I have issues learning to determine if I want to eat or if I am truly hungry.  That is one of the reasons why I binge.  I have not binged in the past two days and I hope that this lack of binging continues.  I have eaten a variety of foods.  I feel pretty good about what I have eaten.  I am not so stuck on calories like I once was but I know that it is a hard habit to break.  Counting calories has been difficult to break and it has gotten tedious.  I had a lot of information at my disposal and that was a problem.  It confused me but when I got down to the meat and potatoes sort of speak, I realize that I didn't need all of that information.  I have drawn up a contract that I will follow until I lose the weight.  I have become honest and I was at a plateau.  Now I can get out of that plateau and have fun with it.  Exercising for tomorrow is now on my mind and it feels good.  I wish that I could just do it, but learning how to do things and actually doing something small is a good thing.  I feel good about actually being able to make a change without giving up.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Healthy start

Today was a pretty good day.  I ate more than my calorie limit which wasn't good.  However, I didn't stress out so much about calories or my calorie intake.  I made a contract to eat and be healthier.  I feel a little healthier...and a little full.  I need to lay off of the pasta, hehe.  That was why I was over the limit.  I hope to fulfill my contract for my health.

Friday, September 6, 2013

My weight loss contract form

On this ______________ day of __________________, 2013, I hereby declare that I, ______________________________________________ have made a contract to lose weight and live a healthy lifestyle.  In this endeavor, my goals are for now to consume _______________ calories per day until the  ________________ day of  ______________________, 2013. 

Here are my goals for now:
I plan to lose 6 pounds by October 7, 2013.  Then I plan to lose 10 more pounds to get out of the ________ + pound mark.  Then my plan is to lose 10 more pounds to get out of the ________+ mark.
I promise to hereby remember that calories are not the end all to be all and that there are alternatives to counting calories.  My current weight is ________ pounds.  My temporary goal weight (1) is _____ pounds.  My secondary temporary goal weight is ________ pounds.  My third temporary goal weight will then be __________ pounds.  My overall goal weight will be between ______ pounds and ______ pounds.  My total weight loss will be between ___________ pounds and ___________ pounds.
Here are my motivations to lose weight:
Right now, I am a current weight loss plateau; because of this plateau, I fail to understand that a plateau would equal changing my routine.  However, I am overwhelmed by this plateau and realize that I need to change my routine.  I do need to exercise more and eat healthier.  I am living with diabetes, PCOS, high blood sugar, and high cholesterol.  I will learn from this day forth how to eat in moderation, to relax and be mindful of the meals that I eat, and appreciate the food that is in front of me by eating slowly and enjoying the taste of said food.  I will learn of the health benefits of each food and drink that I consume. 
What will happen once I lose the weight?
I will no longer be as self-conscious and overwhelmed about my weight.  I will be able to fit into more varieties of clothing than I do now.  I will have a greater ability to move around and not feel all of the aches and pains that occur partly as a result of being overweight.  My cholesterol will be lower and my blood pressure and blood sugar will be normalized.  The diabetes will be reversed.  I will have to worry less about my health because I will be healthier.  I can finally be better able to manage my hormones and blood sugar.  I will feel better about myself and my body because I have accomplished a lot if I were to lose weight and eventually will keep it off.


Thursday, September 5, 2013

My back

I have lost about a pound since last week.  How I did it, I have no idea.  I am going to break the cycle of binging and giving up.  I have not and will not give up.  I have been having back pain lately and I would like to know the best exercises for a hurt back.  I went to the doctor yesterday and I found out that I have a degenerative condition that causes pain.  There was a curve of the spine and backbone.  I was told that my weight because of where it was stored played a role.  So, it was more than enough incentive for me to lose weight.  I have decided to exercise and diet, to do what is hard but it is hard because I allow it to be hard.  It is all in the mindset.  Walking sounds like a good exercise because it is so easy so I wonder what effect it will have on my back?  What are some good exercises for my back other than just stretches?  I will lose the weight and keep it off.  I plan to lose enough weight to get out of the 280+ lb. mark.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


I did a much better job today than I did yesterday, but I am still over my calorie limit.  I will definitely do better next time.  I certainly need to exercise more to get off of this 280+ pound plateau I am in.  I would like to lose 5 pounds to get out of that plateau.  I have to get over my concerns and just do it. I feel much better about my eating than I did yesterday but today has been a lesson for me.  I don't feel guilty about how I ate but I need to lay off of the snacks for a while until I can get off of this plateau.

Monday, September 2, 2013

What I can do

I need to lay off of the desserts.  Other than that, I had a really good day. 

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Random notes

I am just taking a break.  I have had my cheat days and I haven't written anything down.  I sometimes don't know how to have diet days or even have cheat days.  Maybe I can learn a lesson from this.  I have a lot of things to learn but yet I may even be learning as I write this.