Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Hello, HBD to me 9/30/14

I drew a banana today as a reminder to make healthier food choices.  I admit that I didn't choose too many healthy food choices today.  Today I turn 40 which has nothing to do with it.  I feel so great today.  I didn't eat as much as I thought I did.  As a matter of fact, I consumed much less food than I thought I did.

Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast
Boost shake

Lunch
Chili
Toast with butter

Dinner
1/2 Stuffed pepper
Yellow rice
Roasted potatoes and carrots

Snack 1
Birthday cake and ice cream


Monday, September 29, 2014

Menu and musings 9/29/14

Here is what I actually consumed today:
Breakfast
Toast and Jelly

Lunch
Toast with margarine
Chili

Dinner
Toast with margarine
Chili

Lately, I admit that I don't always follow the proposed menu.  I guess that is why it is called proposed.  However, the chili was filling and made with vegetables, chicken, lean beef, and beans. Hopefully all of those healthy ingredients didn't make for an unhealthy chili.  However, the bread wasn't wheat but white and I consumed too much margarine.  So no, my diet is completely healthy. However, considering this is me, I ate in moderation.  What am I waiting for?

Sunday, September 28, 2014

9/28/14 Menu and Musing

Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast
Boost Shake

Lunch
Macaroni and cheese
Chicken Breasts

Dinner
Honey and Cinnamon Oatmeal


I should consume a snack today as well, but because I consumed such a large bowl of oatmeal, there is probably no need.  From the menu, I should have consumed more fruits and vegetables.  After all, there are some green beans, tomatoes, and peaches in the house.  I am a diabetic and I have to be careful of what I consume.  On the other hand, I didn't consume anything that was fried or too fattening so I don't feel bad about that.  There is no guilt other that what I realize I should have done today.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Today's musing

I have consumed too much of the wrong things and not enough of the right things.  I need to realize this because I am a diabetic.  I don't feel horrible right now, but I do have to keep that in mind.  I consumed nearly 2400 calories today.  That is something I don't take pride in.

Friday, September 26, 2014

No guilt here

I have no reason to feel guilty today.  However, I consumed more pasta than fruits.  I did consume peaches which are fruits of course.  I also consumed whole wheat pasta which isn't so bad.  I consumed about 1600 + calories today.  I feel pretty good about today however.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

I am okay 9/25/14

I took the time to eat healthier today.  However, even too much of healthy foods and healthy ingredients is not a good thing.  I am however okay with consuming less than 1800 calories today.  I don't feel guilty about what I ate though.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Musing for 9/24/14

I admit that I have gotten lazy in the last few days so I guess it will be a longer musing for my entry today.  I also admit that sweet drinks and any kind of snacks are my weakness.  It is also true for crackers.  I want to lose the weight and thankfully enough, I have.  I feel so much better about myself because the amount I weigh right now is less than 300 lbs.  I feel pretty good about weighing less than 300 lbs.  I am out of that mark and while I consume food for 1-2lb. per week.  I am proud of myself.  I do need help so that I won't overeat.  I have spent more time consuming fruits, vegetables, and wheat and grains and that is a good thing.  However, I really need to change my diet if I am to lose weight and also to keep it off.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Lesson learned for today 9/21/14

I admit that I wanted to consume breakfast, but I did not.  I should have followed my plan to eat breakfast this morning as I consumed most if not all of my food intake for lunch.  I didn't consume many fruits but I had an intake of vegetables from the stew that I ate today.  I should have been careful not to consume so much starch today as well.  It was macaroni and cheese, rice, and sweet potato pudding.  Sure it was delicious, but I have learned that as a diabetic, eating too many starches can be counterproductive as far as my blood sugar levels.  Overall, I do not feel guilty about what I have consumed today, but I need to watch out for my blood sugar levels.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Today is 9/19/14

I managed to consume an ordinate amount of fruits and vegetables today.  I have not consumed fried foods in a while, which is good.  However, I have eaten too much couscous.  Instead of two servings, I should have consumed only one serving.  I am okay and don't feel guilty about it.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Musing about healthy eating

I have got to consume more fruits and vegetables.  It is a waste of time and money to throw away healthy foods only for them to rot.  Those fruits and vegetables could have been part of a healthy eating plan.  I buy healthy foods, but I don't always plan meals in advance and that has been a problem.  It doesn't help that I don't always use recipes either.  I feel like there needs to be some changes made to my diet plan.  However, I don't wish to repeat that lesson over and over again.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Musing for 9/17/14

I have been eating moderately today.  However, I need to realize that whenever I buy fruits and vegetables, I am supposed to eat them.  I had to throw away a few vegetables in the trash.  Thankfully, I got to use some of it to make a version of chili con carne.  It had a lot of vegetables, ground turkey, chicken, and sausage.  It turned out well.  Here is the menu for today.

Breakfast
Sandwich and milk

Lunch
Chili and bread

Dinner
Chili and bread

Snack 1
Pudding

Snack 2
Pudding

Snack 3
Pudding

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Entry for 9/16/14

I didn't write an entry because I basically forgot.  I dozed off and meant to.  I feel like I have nothing to say except that I focus more on what I consume.  Yesterday my diet was healthier than today.  I spent today consuming only one fruit and a lot of fatty fruits.  It means that I have to eat better.  I think that trying to eat better is counterproductive compared to failure and actually doing.  I think eating only one hot dog would be more productive than eating two with ketchup and mustard. However eating healthy has become a lesson that I have to learn.  If only I learn it the day that I eat.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Musing about today 9/14/14

I consumed more than 1800 calories, which disappointed me but at least the food for the most part was healthy except for the peanut butter and jelly sandwich.  Despite the reduced fat and wheat bread, is there really such thing as a healthy peanut butter and jelly sandwich?  I realize that my health is more important as I am supposed to eat healthy.  I have failed for the past two weeks or so, but no more.  It is time for more fruits, vegetables, and whole grains, and fewer sweet drinks and fried fatty foods.  It is no wonder I gained a lot of weight in a short period of time.


Saturday, September 13, 2014

Menu for 9/13/14 Musings

Breakfast
Cashews
Apple

Lunch
Hot dogs
Vanilla Milkshake

Dinner
Hot dogs
Vanilla Milkshake

This a 1750+ calorie menu out of 1800 calories.  This means that I have only 49 more to go.  I have to think of calories as a budget.  Sometimes I really need to apply that to my eating.  I hate that my eating habits have gotten worse instead of better.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Today's post 9/12/14

Breakfast
Dried Cranberries
Apple

Lunch
BBQ Chicken
Fries

Dinner
BBQ Chicken
Corn

Snack
Apple

Snack 2
Orange

Snack 3
no entry

I have become more mindful of what I ate today.  I know that fries and BBQ chicken is not healthy, but I wonder if there is healthy BBQ.  I know that there are oven baked fries, not the ones that I consumed.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Being mindful of what I consume

I am scared that I will not only engage in mindless eating but also enjoy the mindless eating.  I am scared of gaining even more weight than I have before.  I have not hit my stride sort of speak.  I need help with being mindful of my eating.  I am a diabetic who has eaten the wrong foods.  My account is 1500-1800, yet I have overdrawn days in a row.  I have not tried.  I need help.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Today's reflection

I consumed fried foods and other fattening foods but according to me I ate in moderation.  But how is it possible to consume fried foods in moderation?  I consumed 1750 calories...almost.  So I have no reason to feel guilty about it.  I wonder if I should not only have to write a food plan, but also the time when I consume food.  I have a lot to follow.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Dear God

Dear God,

I know I need help.  I have overeaten for much of the last few days and I need help.  I know that I have not logged in my eating habits for the spark people website.  I also have not exercised. I want to lose weight because I need to lose weight.  I don't feel proud of my sore lack of accomplishments.  I do overeat and I want to stop.  Help me to overcome this issue.  I don't know why I overeat on some days more so than I do others.  I have to stop buying trigger foods.  I need to eat some more healthy foods like nuts and fruits.  I want to lose a specific number of pounds but I know it will take a while to lose weight.  So far, I have lost 15 pounds and I am happy about that.  But I gained four pounds since I last weighed myself and I know I need help.  I don't think I am an emotional eater, so I don't know why I eat.  Help me to cope with overeating and with diabetes.  Help me understand that diabetes is a serious illness and I would like to reverse it.  I was ashamed to be diabetic and I feel like I do take too many medications, especially for my age.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I need help, Lord.  Help me.


In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Down and out

Help me.  I need help with the mindless eating.  I am trying to overcome it but I ate too much at night.  I guess it is because of the other issues I am facing tolday.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Mindless eating problem

I still need help with the mindless eating.  I am in a manic state and I feel like eating everything in sight.  I don't know if it is mania but I feel bad about what I am doing and the mindless eating.  I am fully responsible for my actions.  I am just in need of help because I hope not to gain weight, but I have gained weight.  It all started with eating lunch; I had a homemade French bread pizza.  It as if I am out of control.  How do I maintain self-control and eat healthy at the same time?  That is the question.

Monday, September 1, 2014

I need help with the mindless eating

I am need of help.  I did not use Sparkpeople today.  I am ashamed.  I had a hard time eating so much today.  I knew I was going to go over the 1800 calorie limit.  I consumed sandwiches, burgers, fries, ice cream "sundae", cereal, amongst other things.  That was just too much and too unhealthy.  I have learned to rid myself of trigger foods.  I have decided not to purchase trigger foods, which would be of great benefit.