Thanksgiving leftovers

For the past 2 days, I realize that the ham will be gone soon and so will the pie.  Sure it was delicious. However, my waistline says something else entirely.  Right now my stomach hurts.  I am not sure if it is the pie, the mashed potatoes, or the turkey, or the ham.  Okay, it may be all of the above plus the coffee and the water.  Since I drank the water however, I began to feel better.  After this weekend, my plan is to consume healthier foods and consume all foods in moderation.  That has always been more of a goal of mine.  I just don't like the idea of dieting.  It helps to count calories, but on the other hand, even counting calories can be a chore.

Thanksgiving food and diet reflection

Here is the tea, which I drank quite a bit of.

I ate a large Thanksgiving feast.  It wasn't a meal.  It was a feast.  I had not only a turkey but the usual Sunday fare aside from sweet potato pie.  Pink cloud is an interesting food.  It isn't technically a dessert but can be eaten as one.  This Thanksgiving should be a time not just of great food, but making sure that that good foods doesn't expand my waistline, at least not that much.  I realize that I need to take the time to realize the effects of Thanksgiving dinner on my waistline as well as my taste buds.

The day before Thanksgiving

The answer is no . I will not give up.  Here is what I ate.

Biscuits
Bacon
Peaches
Green Beans

Yep, that was all I consumed today, as well as a whole of water.  Since today is the day before Thanksgiving, I tend to eat light.  Thanksgiving, however, is a day where I tend to consume anything but light foods.

Bump.

Bump.

Should i Give Up?

I feel like I should.  However, I do something so stupid.  I am a person who doesn't wish to quit.  I really don't want to give up.  I am just tired.  Am I really 40, fat, and fed up?  Could it be that life is passing me by?  I know it makes no sense whether or not I should give up.  Eating two bags of popcorn will not help me lose weight, especially when one of them has added butter.  That to me is a symbol of my wanting to give up.  I have grown tired of logging in everything that I have eaten and all of what I drink during the course of a day.  Sometimes being fat is too much to bear.  Also, being tired is even more.  Should I give up?  No I should not give up, because I am ever hopeful.  Eating loaves of bread, chicken, and white rice would also not constitute a healthy diet either.  Sometimes, I cannot take anymore.  Other times I just wish to get started.  I want to say what is a girl to do, yet in times like these, the answer is no.  I will not give up.  I am too fixated on losing weight, true.  I have done little or nothing to truly change. It is time to begin.

In denial or just lazy?

Today, I found myself loving bread.  I went from loving peanut butter and jelly to toast and preserves to just slices of bread.  I didn't any fruits and vegetables.  I am not healthy and I have been a healthy eater lately.  I tend to eat whatever is available.  I realize that I have healthy foods in the house, but my eating habits are poor.  I have no real desire to change, which I know myself makes no sense. What is wrong with me?  I am obese.  I weigh almost 300 lbs.  I have never weighed that much in my entire life except for the last few years.  There were times when I have given up.  I have been willing to change, but I don't know how.  Sadly, I have no desire to change to the detriment of my health. I am not in denial or anything like that, but it still scares me.  I am clueless and fed up, yet seem okay with my poor eating habits.  I am confused.  How do I get past this mindset and not just start over? I just want to start from here and just do better next time.  Help me to balance things out.

I gave up....today

I basically gave up on myself.  I basically don't wish to gain weight due to health problems at all.  All I consumed today was a large breakfast of sausage, bacon, biscuits, eggs, and grits.  While it tasted good, I am not sure if it was healthy or not.  Also I drank caffeinated coffee, though I heard and read about the benefits of coffee.  I realize that I won't lose a pound that way.  However, I also realize that I won't gain any weight this way either.  My metabolism is kinda funny that way.