Sunday, November 23, 2014
In denial or just lazy?
Today, I found myself loving bread. I went from loving peanut butter and jelly to toast and preserves to just slices of bread. I didn't any fruits and vegetables. I am not healthy and I have been a healthy eater lately. I tend to eat whatever is available. I realize that I have healthy foods in the house, but my eating habits are poor. I have no real desire to change, which I know myself makes no sense. What is wrong with me? I am obese. I weigh almost 300 lbs. I have never weighed that much in my entire life except for the last few years. There were times when I have given up. I have been willing to change, but I don't know how. Sadly, I have no desire to change to the detriment of my health. I am not in denial or anything like that, but it still scares me. I am clueless and fed up, yet seem okay with my poor eating habits. I am confused. How do I get past this mindset and not just start over? I just want to start from here and just do better next time. Help me to balance things out.