Making plans

Let me see...I realize how much help I truly need.  I have my support system yet the one person who can truly support me is me.  Planning my meals won't be easy but it will be worth it.  I believe that planning meals is beneficial yet difficult.  I only planned to eat a certain amount of foods per day.  It would be a great thing. Failure to plan is like planning to fail.  I have come to realize that there may actually be a strategy to lose weight.  I have been overwhelmed for a while and now it is time for me to let go.

The thirteenth of March

I have consumed over the 43 point limit that I am supposed to eat throughout the day.  However, I have many points left so far for the weeks.  I have learned to eat better, say in moderation.  However, I have to learn to eat healthier.  I am not unhappy with what or how I ate today.

Today 3-12-14

I ate quite a bit of fried foods and white breads today.  I hope to feel better about what I ate.  I haven't eaten compulsively, but I do tend to eat the right kinds of foods which I do ever so often.  Now what I do ever so often is what I realize that I should do everyday.

Continuation

I would like to continue eating much less than I have today.  I have been eating more fruits today than I have before.  Yesterday I was given information about how to eat healthy.  Eat in smaller portions and also load smaller plates with proteins with fruits and vegetables.  I would like to learn how to actually plan meals and stick to it.  Sadly, I rarely do.

Identifying my weight and my compulsive eating problem

I have some bad news.  The bad news is that I have gained weight.  The good news is that I can lose weight and I have done so before.  I didn't eat too much today.  I have been on Weight Watchers lately and I hope to count points and continue to do so for a long time.  I have a compulsion problem where I eat because I gave up.  That has made the compulsion much much worse.  Even making a plan in advance would make the compulsion worse.  I am coming to grips by gaining weight and by gaining weight, I can make a change.  I admit that I have a problem and it needs to be fixed.

Luck

I am lucky to not engage in compulsive eating and drinking.  I did drink a lot of sweet drinks and juices however.  I felt as if there was a sudden drop in my blood sugar levels.  During those times, I wondered what can help me with the feelings of weakness and shakiness.  I did eat unhealthy foods, but in moderation. Maybe I should just lay off of the unhealthy foods for a while.  I have not lost any weight.  In fact, I have gained weight.  I want to do well for myself.  The best thing to do is to overcome or deal with the eating issues that I have.

Logging in

I did engage in compulsive eating today with two bowls of cereal.  I am ashamed of logging them into my Weight watchers account.  I feel like I am wasting money and energy on this program that I am not doing so well in.  I have not lost any weight in this program and I feel like a failure.  I feel weak and powerless to do much about it.  I definitely need to change those patterns and continue to get the help that I need.