Saturday, December 28, 2013
Taking stock about losing weight
Do I really need to lose weight? I have always had the motivation, but maybe not the proper motivation because I don't know what it is. I have low self-esteem and I wonder if weight loss will help do that. Everywhere I turn, I see a stereotype or a demeaning comment. I had no idea that I would be considered unattractive, but the "bottom of the barrel" when it comes to discrimination. I know I am not healthy and I need to lose weight. The problem is, I don't know why I need to lose weight and if I have that desire to lose. I wonder what my desire is or if I am confused. That is why I always fail. I am at the point where I am questioning myself. It makes no sense to me, but at least I am asking questions. Do I need, want, or desire to lose weight? Do I need, want, and desire to lose weight? Why am I so confused and question heavy? I am 300 lbs yet I am asking myself these questions. I need to take stock and examine why I would like to lose weight if I care to already.