Dealing with eating too much.

I tend to eat a lot of food when I am hungry.  There are days when anything good no matter how healthy, can be a trigger.  I have no clue how to deal with a trigger until I carry the extra points until the next day.  It seems rather dishonest.  I would like to just control my eating so that I can lose more weight.  I am to keep it simple as I should have years ago.  I just want to lose weight because I know what could happen if I get larger.  I don't.  I want to fit into a chair, take less medication, fit into old clothes, and be less self-conscious about my weight.  Most of all, unbelievably, I would like to know that I have actually accomplished something.  I ate too much today and I wish I could eat less than my point limit.  How do I control myself?  How do I meet my needs without feeling guilty?  I wonder how.

Planning meals and differences

I am not sure how to plan all of my meals for tomorrow since I have an appointment.  My mother and I do cook different types of foods, which is true, yet there are foods like greens that we have in common.  I don't care for turnips but she does.  I admit that I do eat more processed food than she does however.  It is better to have her diet than it does mine however.  As for what I consumed today, I don't feel guilty about what I ate.  I have not used up my points as of yet.  I have a few points to go.

Lesson learned

I need to learn about diet and exercise.  I don't feel good about myself.  I would like to overcome eating too much processed foods.  My question is, how do I go about doing that?  I feel like being ashamed of myself because I want to be honest yet it has been hard.  I really have to log in everything I eat.  I have to and need to be honest with myself if I wish to lose weight and take care of myself.

My inside thoughts about my eating habits

Right now I feel like giving up.  However I am reminded of a lot of things.  I am cheap, so I better not waste any money on something that has been good for my health, lol.  Seriously, I need to lose the weight that I gained and then some.  Today has been a good start for me.  It has been a spiritual awakening.  I would like to live my life as a responsible adult.  I have had issues such as anxiety, low self-esteem, and a lack of self-control to contend with.  Those are deep issues that I have to face also including fears.  I am also nervous about going ahead with WW.  I don't wish to allow frustration to cause me to quit.  I do overeat sometimes and I do like the taste and texture of food, but WW is teaching me how to eat, such as in moderation.  I also have to learn how to avoid or eat in moderation, trigger foods such as crackers, peanuts, and ice cream.  I do eat too much food because at times I eat food mindlessly and I have to deal with that so that I can overcome it.  I am not overwhelmed so I will take each issue one at a time.

The Good and Bad

I overate a little bit.  Well, I overate by 10 points, but at least I put ten of those 49 points to good use.  I have to be careful eating trigger foods or avoid them altogether.  I realize that I can and do eat some fruits and vegetables.  Eating grains and lean meats are also important.  Being on WW has taught me to eat.  I knew that I need to eat better, but being on WW helped me to really understand how bad my eating habits are.  The support I get is so great.

I am not nervous today

I am a lot let nervous to exercise.  I was so nervous because I fear failure.  I think that an exercise log would make things easier for me.  Why I didn't realize this before, I have no idea.  I am happy to say that I have not used all of my extra WW points.  I have however eaten a lot, which is to be expected of such a day.  So far, the Broncos need all of the help they can get.  Any way, back to the topic.  I don't feel guilty about what I ate, but I surprise myself sometimes.  I ate less than I thought I would this time around.  I feel pretty good about what I ate.

Nervous about exercise

I have an obvious desire to change.  I am nervous however.  I am afraid that I will not stick to an exercise routine.  I like to walk and do other exercises but I am nervous about it.  To many, it makes no sense, but I am anxious about it.  I ate well today and I spent a lot of time learning how to eat.  I figure that doing a lot of work yet eating badly does no good.  So I wonder where I should begin?