For the past few days, I have grown tired and lazy. I just didn't like myself. I am honest enough to finally admit that fact. I realize that I have to admit that no one else, even if they could, teach me or help me like or respect myself. Do I have any respect myself? Why is it even on this particular blog? Well not even trying to put down the foods that I eat amount to a larger symptom: dislike and dishonesty. I got a wake up call this afternoon. It is time for me to stop lying. Even if I consumed 3500 calories worth of food, write it down. A pound of food? Yikes. Anyways, I keep writing the cliches, "a lesson to learn from", but the problem is, I have yet to learn that lesson. I have often failed to take action. I don't believe that I have consumed 3500 today, but I didn't consume much water or healthy foods either. That is what I should be writing down at what times I consume them.