Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Reflection on my Daily Food and Diet blog

Meal: Breakfast
Time: 8:33 AM
What I ate or drink? 2 slices of wheat toast, 1/3 cup raisins, 1 orange, 1 apple
Number of calories: 370
Carbs: 44.5
How much or number of ounces: 20 oz. coffee + 16 oz. water
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: I wasn't sure if what I ate this morning was enough. However, it was a healthy meal.

Meal: Snack 1
Time: 12:40 PM
What I ate or drink? 1.5 cup ice cream
Number of calories: 330
Carbs:51
How much or number of ounces:16 oz. water
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: I wasn't sure if what I ate this morning was enough. However, it was a healthy meal.

Meal: Snack 2
Time: 2:35 PM
What I ate or drank: 25 potato :
Number of calories: 250
Carbs: 8
How much or number of ounces: 20 oz. water
Where eaten or drunk: Home
Reflection: I am not well..fully.  I also should have eaten in moderation.

Meal: Lunch
Time: 2:40 PM
What I ate or drink? 1.5 cup macaroni salad
Number of calories: 660
Carbs:129
How much or number of ounces:16 oz. water + 30 oz. coffee
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: I wasn't sure if what I ate this morning was enough. However, it was a healthy meal.

Meal: Snack  3
Time: 2:35 PM
What I ate or drank: 25 potato :
Number of calories:470
Carbs: 24
How much or number of ounces: 20 oz. water
Where eaten or drunk: Home
Reflection: I am not well..fully.  I also should have eaten in moderation.

Meal:Dinner
Time 5:50 PM
What I ate or drink? 5 cup macaroni salad
Number of calories: 220
Carbs:43
How much or number of ounces: 0 oz.
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: It was not enough of what I have consumed.

Meal: Snack 4
Time: 5:54 PM
What I ate or drink? 3 cup ice cream
Number of calories: 660
Carbs: 360
How much or number of ounces: 0 oz.
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: It is a trigger food.

Daily Totals:
Calories:  2960
Carbs: 564
How much or number of ounces:
Where eaten or drink: Home
Overall Summary: I consumed too much ice cream even in one setting.  The fact of the mutter is, that I should have eaten only less than one cup of ice cream.  One serving equals 110 calories worth, so it is the same as yesterday.

I did not add anything today because I just quit.  Everyday I seem to get overwhelmed.  Also, I just don't care is my way of saying I can eat whatever what I want.  I have no boundaries when it comes to the food that I eat or what I drink as well.  I have not sabotaged myself as far as I know.  I notice this happens after I lose weight.  I often take weight loss for granted.  The best thing for me to do is to identify what the trigger foods are.  I also think that the best thing for me to do is to actually take further action.  Writing is something I find cathartic.  It helps me understand what I am doing right and what I am doing wrong.  Now all I have to do is to not get overwhelmed or anxious mentally.  My desire is to take action.  However, my biggest fear is fear itself.  Also, losing weight as a diabetic is not easy, but it shouldn't be hard, either.  But for me, it is, until I realize that there are complications to have this condition.  I would not wish these complications on anyone, much less myself.  I have been, and still am, in conflict, but I have no idea why that is.  All I know is that while it is hard, I don't want to make losing weight and getting healthier should and will ultimately be, my goal.