Thursday, September 3, 2015
Journal entry for 9/3/15
I have had a burning sensation in my right toe. That is a warning to stop having a "free day" and to control my urge to binge. I just had some water tonight. It has quenched my thirst and it has made me full. I wish that is what I should have done today. I realize that what I consumed today are actually trigger foods. Those foods are my weaknesses when it comes to losing weight and keeping it off. I consumed more than 4000 calories for the past two days thereby gaining at least a pound or two from when I weighed myself. I started off well, but I binged to the point where I feel guilty. I have engaged in mindless eating before, but unlike this time, I will not give up on weight loss. I have been more self-conscious and anxiety ridden about my weight than ever before. I tend to consume too much sodium and not enough of the fruits, vegetables, and whole grains that I need. My weight is at just under 300 lbs. I have a condition which will make losing weight hard. However, I myself don't wish to make it hard, either. I woke up late and ate no breakfast, which could have also been the reason why I ate so much. I feel like I have failed in my goals of consuming 1200-1500 calories per day. It can be done, but it has been a while since I have eaten those few calories., It is just about my eating healthy that is all. I won't starve, I promise.