I got it!

I now know why I have not applied myself.  I have been doing things wrong all along.  I don't feel so good about that yet at the same time there is hope.  I have made plans to consume fruits and vegetables today and I will follow through with those plans.  My weight has not budged much and it is because I have not been following the instructions that I was supposed to use according to the plan.  Yep, I have failed myself, but ironically, I have a fear of doing wrong and being imperfect.  Those things in my mind spell failure.