After today, I plan to make it a real journal. I need to lose weight. No one has to tell me I need to eat the wrong kinds of foods. I have, and still do, know that I rather consume a large pizza than I would consume a plain turkey burger with no cheese or condiments and sweet potato fries. Neither of them sound like bad choices as far as taste goes. It is just that I don't listen to a lifetime on the hips may be true if I put a pizza to my lips.j I don't need or want tough love, but that is just what I need. I have been given that tough love and how do I react? I react with unappreciative depression and all the trappings of low self-esteem. I love food but there are times when I can't stop eating. In my mind, I know that pizza and chocolate don't love me back. On the other hand, do I love me back? I guess, but I certainly don't like me and that is where the problem lies, pun intended.